Sorry about the heavy topic:
When I was 6-9, I was regularly sexually abused by my brother who is 8 years older than me (I'm male). I have trouble remembering everything but I know he would call it "fake sex" and there would be penetration involved. He never did anything against my will and I remember looking forward to it on occasions (wow that's not easy to write).
My brother and I have never spoken about this and we have a pretty good relationship. I rarely thought about it growing up and thinking about it is strange more than anything, like it happened to a different person.
Currently I have major social anxiety issues which have sometimes resulted in difficulty leaving the house. I work as a teacher which I enjoy a lot but my issues make every day 5 times as stressful as they normally would. I have difficulty interacting with people and I doubt I will ever form a relationship with a woman.
I have no idea if the abuse is related to my issues since as I say, it was very rare that I ever thought about it and it didn't ever seem to affect me.
I've though about seeing someone about these issues but I'm worried that discussing the abuse may make it a bigger issue than it currently is. And if I go planning to only speak about my social anxiety then the other stuff will probably come up.
Any advice? I've never spoken about this to anyone so just posting this is a good step for me.
When I was 6-9, I was regularly sexually abused by my brother who is 8 years older than me (I'm male). I have trouble remembering everything but I know he would call it "fake sex" and there would be penetration involved. He never did anything against my will and I remember looking forward to it on occasions (wow that's not easy to write).
My brother and I have never spoken about this and we have a pretty good relationship. I rarely thought about it growing up and thinking about it is strange more than anything, like it happened to a different person.
Currently I have major social anxiety issues which have sometimes resulted in difficulty leaving the house. I work as a teacher which I enjoy a lot but my issues make every day 5 times as stressful as they normally would. I have difficulty interacting with people and I doubt I will ever form a relationship with a woman.
I have no idea if the abuse is related to my issues since as I say, it was very rare that I ever thought about it and it didn't ever seem to affect me.
I've though about seeing someone about these issues but I'm worried that discussing the abuse may make it a bigger issue than it currently is. And if I go planning to only speak about my social anxiety then the other stuff will probably come up.
Any advice? I've never spoken about this to anyone so just posting this is a good step for me.
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