| I am 27 years old in a domestic partnership. We have only been together close to 3 years and during that time we would fight sometimes so bad that I would lose it and hit her. I don't know why I did it, I would instantly regret it every time. I felt as though something came over me and I was not thinking. This is no excuse, I refuse to make excuses for myself, I assume all responsibility. I promised to never do it again and I kept doing it. This last weekend we really got into a huge fight and again I hit her. I am so ashamed for what I did. She is leaving me and who could blame her. She told me she told herself she would never put up with that and is disappointed that she ever stayed the first time it happened. She tells me she no longer loves me and only sees me as a friend. She has lost all feelings towards me. I am still in love with her but I am so ashamed for what I have done. I became the very person that I never wanted to be. I was abused when I was younger and even in a previous relationship and I felt as though I was such a strong person to overcome that but instead I became my abusers. I am so ashamed for what I did. I am currently seeking counseling. But I just need to talk to someone, I have told most everyone I know that I am an abuser because I feel like I need to shame myself. I feel like I should turn myself in. I can't even look at myself. I am hurting so bad, I am losing the one I love and I have destroyed her. | |||
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