| well this is the first time ive posted here and actually visited. Ill just get right into it. About 7 months ago i found out my wife of 10 yrs was having an emotional affair for at least 3 months, now maybe im a big sissy but this was the most traumatic experiece of my life. and maybe that is a good thing? We have 2 gorgeous little girls, and we had come so far from the first 7 yrs of our marriage, so i thought? We had never been better emotionally, mentally, and physically, so i thought? She suddenly started treating me like a bad dog. She became very secretive with her phone, and constantly wanted to be gone. It didnt take me long to become suspiscious, the comments, the forgetting to put on her ring, and ofcourse the changing of passwords on her phone and facebook. She swears nothing physical happened but damn, i found almost 1800 texts on our bill to this specific guy in just one month, and she even told me that she thought we needed time apar t. I remember one night before i went to work being on my hands and knees like a wimp, upset of course asking her to just talk to me, how can we go from so happy to her so unhappy and cruel to the me, the guy who for yrs has been a good husband, good dad, and just an overall solid and reliable person. There is so much more to the story of things that went on, specifically of how she treated me, to be honest was cruel and inhumane, if did the same to her i would be and emotionally and menally abusive husband! Not one to judge somone on physical appearances, but good god this guy is not very desirable to most,, and my wife is cute and nice looking, Anyway 7 months later i am thinking about leaving? i found out during my investigation of this affair that at one pt in our marriage she was talking to an ex again, and to be honest she has just not been as good a spouse as i expected or deserve, but thought she made huge changes the last 3 yrs. Now it is like i am the bad guy becau se i cant let it go, im trying but i see this guy often and just want to pound his face in, lol but so far have contained myself. We moved to her town 3 yrs ago to get away from somethings, started going to church here, made lots of new friends here, and now i llive 4 blocks from the guy she was thinking about leaving me for.(she wont say that but her actions leave me no doubt) Ive tried to talk to her about calling it quits and she gets very upset and cries and apologies, and it stops me, along with my little girls who i am very close with. I dont want to hurt her even though she to be honest just crushed me. there is so many more things i have turned the other cheek on, ignored and let slide and now i think i may have had enough trying to find the strength to get out with hurting anyone is that even possible? I know that this might be minor for what some people have to endure, and maybe insulting to some for me to think this is a big problem, however it is effecting me ver y much. Am i justified at getting the hell out and just trying to find some peace, and becoming a better dad, son, brother, uncle, friend and maybe a great husband again someday? losing my mind in illinois |
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