Forgiveness
Last Friday I sat down with an old friend, pastor, and mentor. The single most difficult word I walked away with was "forgiveness."
Forgiveness used to be such an easy thing for me. Looking back I cannot think of anything I've held onto from other relationships, and I've had many toxic endings. Yet this last one, I honestly don't see ever getting to that point.
For the last year I've been milling over the same hurts. I've tried to understand it, I can't. I've tried to ignore it, it triggers. I've tried to minimalize it, its just too much.
One thing I do understand is this is going to take some time, and I have yet to finalize the divorce process. Even so, I think I am going in the wrong direction moving past the pain, becoming more confused, and isolating myself because, frankly, am not a joy to be around.
At this stage, what am I missing?
If you have gone through divorce, did you return to the same person you were?
Last Friday I sat down with an old friend, pastor, and mentor. The single most difficult word I walked away with was "forgiveness."
Forgiveness used to be such an easy thing for me. Looking back I cannot think of anything I've held onto from other relationships, and I've had many toxic endings. Yet this last one, I honestly don't see ever getting to that point.
For the last year I've been milling over the same hurts. I've tried to understand it, I can't. I've tried to ignore it, it triggers. I've tried to minimalize it, its just too much.
One thing I do understand is this is going to take some time, and I have yet to finalize the divorce process. Even so, I think I am going in the wrong direction moving past the pain, becoming more confused, and isolating myself because, frankly, am not a joy to be around.
At this stage, what am I missing?
If you have gone through divorce, did you return to the same person you were?
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