So the crooks of the story:
I live with my best friend (referred as M) and one of his (female) friends (referred as F). Over the last year I have also got to know F, though I don't think super highly of her. Anyway, in October last year, F moved into the flat as an ex-flatmate moved out. At the time, I was not keen on the idea, but I asked M whether there was any lingering feelings for F from their previous relationship a year earlier. I was assured no, and I insisted that M tell me if any feelings change.
Since October when F moved in, M&F started getting fairly close - they left the flat together to go to work, come back together from work, went to the library together when F had assignments to do... so by December I was already feeling like the third wheel, I never saw M on his own, and I did let him know that, abeit nothing changed.
I was out of town for New Years, and in the end, I suspected they hooked up on NYE. After a month, I finally got F to confess to me that this indeed was the case (though M denied it separately). Obviously I got a bit annoyed at M, as he had lied to me and betrayed my trust (he didn't tell me that his feelings changed) and confronted him about it. He denied he did anything wrong and said it was a personal affair, and it was not wrong that he didn't share it with me.
After that initial instance, they were still in the same routine - leaving the flat together, coming back together, etc, but I got busy with work and assignments, so didn't really spend much time over the last 2 months around the flat. Once in a while, I would arrive home around midnight (usually past their bedtime as they get up early for work), M would suspiciously just emerge from the bathroom suddenly (F's bedroom is next to the bathroom) - but honestly, i don't know if they were hooking up or not.
Fast forward to last week: I just got back from holiday, and F was out of town for a couple of days as well. One day, I told M&F that I would be home really late due to catching up with work. I got exhausted by midnight and turned up home just after 12.30am. When got home, I noticed that M's door was wide open and M was not there. I got ready for bed, and 10 mins later switched my bedside light off / click click/. Suddenly I heard M sneak out of F's room and back into his own room. I heard him rustle his condom tin in his bedside cabinet - presume that I just got back home as something was about to start, and I walked in at the wrong moment.
Now I know for sure something is going on between them again. If I'm honest; there's a mix of emotions that are going through my head at the moment
- Sympathetic to the fact it is a very personal and they don't want to tell everyone about it
- Rage / fury that i feel betrayed again (this time i honestly don't know how long it has been going on for, i think just a couple of weeks whilst i was away on holiday)
- annoyed that its very close to exam season, and I am going to spend a lot of time in the library and will constantly feel like the third wheel, as both of them will be there -they didnt think about my feelings at all
- left out (?) kinda miss being able to hang out with my best friend (though we really haven't hung out alone in a while, and don't know why i still call him my "best" friend)
I haven't confronted them about the relationship this time. I don't know if they think I'm still oblivious to their frolicks. On one side, I don't know if I should approach them about it - and if so what is a rational thing to say. On the other, I am tempted to kick F out of the flat, as she can always go live with her parents not that far away.
I really don't know what to do. I think I'm fairly sensitive(for a guy at least), and I don't know how this relationship will affect me going forward.
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