So ever since I can remember I've been quite anti social and lacking confidence, I've always out other people's needs before mine because I hated making people angry. Anyway I had a 'best friend' for about 3 years, and throughout these 3 years she had bullied me on and off. It started off with little things and manipulating me, or passively pointing out flaws of me and my friends physical appearance. As these three years went by, it got worse and worse, to the point where she would threaten to tell people personal things about me if I didn't spend time with her or tell her every personal little detail about my life. I told her everything and she betrayed my trust, for example, I told her about my mother being in the early stages of cancer and when we fell out once she said she was glad my mum got cancer. Everything completely fell apart when I got a boyfriend, she used to expect me to spend ever free day with her and if I'd already made plans with him for one day she would start yet another argument and start insulting me and my family and using everything I'd trusted her with against me. I know it doesn't sound so bad because u don't have time to go into detail about the things she would say to me when she took a funny turn. But basically I'm posting this because everyone I try to talk to doesn't understand, they say "if she was so awful then why were you friends for so long?". It was simply because I felt threatened and she was manipulative and twisted, I was scared to tell her I didn't want to be friends with because of what she knew about me, and because of how she treated me I now find it extremely difficult to trust anyone, even my own boyfriend. I just want to know if anyone else has been in the same position as me and if they understand what I was going through.
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