He broke up with me right before my finals during an argument via text. I was ill for most of my final year of my master's and I think he was drifting away a bit. He was extremely insecure because I think it really bothered him that I was at a top rankd uni and he was unemployed looking for a job. It never really bothered me because it's hard to find jobs these days and anyway and I was crazy about him. Anyway he found a decent job and then broke up with me.
I have had a tough time since because I had to move away and haven't seen him since. I have mostly moved on, my health's improved and I have things to look forward to. I have heard that he's dating someone else, which did bother me a bit at first, but not anymore because he was so inconsiderate and hurtful by the end that I actually worry about her.
My question is this: I didn't beg after he broke up with my, I accepted it and moved on (on the surface) even though I cried a lot on my own. My family and friends know how I actually felt. And I heard that he spread awful rumours about me that I had cheated on him, slept around, found men via Tinder etc., which is all rubbish - the reality was that I was ill, writing my thesis, studying for six exams. I don't know if his ego was hurt, but all his trash talk really affected me for ages. I don't feel half as bad now, but it hurts me that someone I loved and maybe someone who loved me too could stoop so low. He broke up with me, not the other way around.
I have things to look forward to. I am off to study a PhD later this year. I have a job that keeps me occupied in the meantime, but sometimes I find it hard to shake off his behaviour. I realise people can move on and that's fine, but there is no need to spread lies about someone. Please help me understand what might have made him act thus.
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