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I just don't know what to do!

I have been with my husband for almost 7 years now and I am about at the end of my rope. We are a blended family and when we met I had a boy and he had a girl. My son is now 13 an his daughter is now 16 and PREGNANT…ugh… When we got married he decided he would adopt my son and we also have a little girl together. I have been in the same job for 8 almost 9 years and make decent money. He however had been through about 8 jobs all together and 3 of which he got fired from within the last three 5 months. I pay all the bills plus do all the laundry, cooking, cleaning, shopping run all the errands,, take the kids to their appointments, feed the dogs, get the dogs to the vet and I am taking 12 credit hours to get my bachelors degree. I am exhausted.
Every holiday is aweful and somehow he makes one of us cry. I can't have a sit down dinner without having someone have their feelings hurt and its just not enjoyable so the kids go to their room and eat and we usually sit in front of the TV and then all seems well.
Back in April I had just had it and went home from Iowa to Texas to see my mother. While I was gone he had lied to me about going to work and after covering all that up as he was lying to me about one week he decided not to go two days while I was gone and thought he would get away with it. We own a house but the payments are high and I can't make it quite on my own but I could if I got a second job.
When we are together I feel like he smothers me and he constantly tells me he loves me and trys to touch me and I don't have time for that ****. I am so stressed out the last thing I want to do is that. Then I get lyed to and he can't hold a job and he is a ****ty husband and a ****ty dad unless he gets called out on it and then he tries to the best dad in the world until things die down and then back to the ***hole.
I told him if he lost his job again that it was going to be over and he had to get out of my house. Well he lost it and I finally got him to leave to go stay with his mother and then boom, he gets sick and has his appendix out and now he's back in my house!
I don't know what to do…one minute I feel bad for him and want to work it out and the next I just can't wait for him to get out and leave me alone.
I want to take my 2 kids and sell the house and relocate back in Texas where my mom is and I will have the support of her and my friends. He keeps contesting me and saying he is coming with me. He don't get it and he is in complete denial.
PLEASE GIVE SOME INSIGHT!!!

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