Ok just gonna clear something up straight from the off the person i'm going to be mentioning about i never dated (although i wish it)
Ok so for about that past year and a half i've been in love with my best friend, now she knows everything, because i told her (i'm an avid believer of not keeping emotions bottled up), she didn't feel the same way about me and never did (she had her reasons) and it's been a tough time but i've been moving on (or at least i thought so) recently while watching How I Met Your Mother (which i actually really like) some of those residual feelings for this girl seeped back to the surface
Now those feelings included me wanting to have sex with this girl, not just because she's attractive, i'm a virgin and i have a personal moral about only wanting to loose it to someone i care about, the thing is i've had a few moments were i've almost genuinely asked her to take it, however knowing how miserable i got last year when i saw her dating a friend and how attached i got to her when i wasn't even dating her makes me not want to either (that and she's said she wouldn't have sex with someone unless she was dating them)
I'm just concerned i'm jumping back bandwagon with my feelings for this girl, also the solution isn't as simple as stop watching HIMYM as my brain loves to over-think things (it's what i do), i'm just not sure how to handle things, like i said she already knows how i felt about her, she knows i still have feelings for her. I ended up torturing myself last year (not literally of course) which lead to consequences in my personal life
Just don't know how to cope with these feelings ....
Apologies if this is a confusing post, i'm not quite sure how to convey my thoughts into words
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