Well you know how it goes, we all have or physical preferences in partners, but the most common for straight women is tall, handsome, well-built.
Now of course that's not to say being skinny is never attractive to women but as I noticed in the seminar I just attended, if it's the choice between a big muscular guy and a skinny runt, you'll obviously pick the former. I was smaller than the first-years despite being their assistant mentoring, and they were all better-looking than me.
On top of this I had nothing to contribute to the discussion (because they'd already done the work and didn't need advice). I felt invisible. I don't know what I'm doing helping out with it, I'm actually a waste of space in this example.
I don't really know how to remedy this other than hit the gym. I'm alrady partly convinced my ex broke up with/friendzoned me because I wasn't physically attractive enough to her. I personally think she fancied me more years ago when I was bigger.
I'm also stuck with this body for now because I can't yet afford enough for a bulk, nor will my dad support me with it as he'll give me the usual self-esteem boosters 'you're beautiful as you are' that do not work at our age, and have a hissy fit if I do start eating lots of protein/working out. So, I really don't now what to do. As I say, I struggle to find myself physically attractive to women, because I've just been dumped and because I get ignored in these situations-can't even compensate with 'intelligence' if there's no reason for you to be present at the meeting.
Tl;dr I am intimidated by being surrounded by biggerand more aggressive guys than me because I feel physically inferior to them and less sexually attractive to women than them
Now of course that's not to say being skinny is never attractive to women but as I noticed in the seminar I just attended, if it's the choice between a big muscular guy and a skinny runt, you'll obviously pick the former. I was smaller than the first-years despite being their assistant mentoring, and they were all better-looking than me.
On top of this I had nothing to contribute to the discussion (because they'd already done the work and didn't need advice). I felt invisible. I don't know what I'm doing helping out with it, I'm actually a waste of space in this example.
I don't really know how to remedy this other than hit the gym. I'm alrady partly convinced my ex broke up with/friendzoned me because I wasn't physically attractive enough to her. I personally think she fancied me more years ago when I was bigger.
I'm also stuck with this body for now because I can't yet afford enough for a bulk, nor will my dad support me with it as he'll give me the usual self-esteem boosters 'you're beautiful as you are' that do not work at our age, and have a hissy fit if I do start eating lots of protein/working out. So, I really don't now what to do. As I say, I struggle to find myself physically attractive to women, because I've just been dumped and because I get ignored in these situations-can't even compensate with 'intelligence' if there's no reason for you to be present at the meeting.
Tl;dr I am intimidated by being surrounded by biggerand more aggressive guys than me because I feel physically inferior to them and less sexually attractive to women than them
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