I'd be wrong if I said I didn't start this thread in the hope of someone to talk too.
I've had depression for 8 years and I've been through quite a lot, yesterday I had an argument with my boyfriend, he calls me psycho whenever we argue and the word literally kills me after everything. I turned around and cruelly said to him, 'well your sister died.' I wanted to show him how much it hurts when you keep mentioning the worst thing to happen in someone life. The argument basically ended in him saying I deserved to have been raped and it was my own fault.
I feel ashamed admitting about the argument and I was wrong to mention his sister but he doesn't understand how much bringing up the past can hurt a person. We went into town after that and eventually got to the point of 'lets make it work.'
He phoned me last night when he got in but I was asleep long before then so this morning I messaged him saying I was going for a shower and I'll ring him when I get out. He read the message but I've tried to call him to no reply. I know that these are mind games.
The issues is I'm so lonely, I'd love to break up with him but I literally have no friends around to talk to and I think I'm just sinking back into depression. I keep checking whatsapp religiously hoping that someone is there to talk too but the truth is I have noone and I just feel so alone.
I just feel like I'd desperately love someone who understands or who could just make me laugh but I literally have noone and it's eating me up inside. I keep getting further and further down.
I've had depression for 8 years and I've been through quite a lot, yesterday I had an argument with my boyfriend, he calls me psycho whenever we argue and the word literally kills me after everything. I turned around and cruelly said to him, 'well your sister died.' I wanted to show him how much it hurts when you keep mentioning the worst thing to happen in someone life. The argument basically ended in him saying I deserved to have been raped and it was my own fault.
I feel ashamed admitting about the argument and I was wrong to mention his sister but he doesn't understand how much bringing up the past can hurt a person. We went into town after that and eventually got to the point of 'lets make it work.'
He phoned me last night when he got in but I was asleep long before then so this morning I messaged him saying I was going for a shower and I'll ring him when I get out. He read the message but I've tried to call him to no reply. I know that these are mind games.
The issues is I'm so lonely, I'd love to break up with him but I literally have no friends around to talk to and I think I'm just sinking back into depression. I keep checking whatsapp religiously hoping that someone is there to talk too but the truth is I have noone and I just feel so alone.
I just feel like I'd desperately love someone who understands or who could just make me laugh but I literally have noone and it's eating me up inside. I keep getting further and further down.
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