Ive been with my boyfriend for four years, but since November last year we have broken up 3 times and then got back together. Weve broken up due to his parents not accepting me and therefore controlling him in ways to make him busy so he cant see me (hes 17, im 18. His parents have told him he does what they say for as long as he lives there)
We broke up the third time end of January because id found out he had booked a holiday to Magaluf with his friends and didnt mention it at all before he booked it even though he said he didnt have the money to go with me when i had asked him if he wanted to get away for a while. When asked why there he referred to it as a "once in a lifetime opportunity". I was pretty angry at the fact his parents had allowed him to book a holiday with a bunch of other guys to go to a place like Magaluf yet they wouldnt even allow him to sleep round my house. and he said he wanted to still talk now and then, even thought i said i didnt i said ok.
During the first week of splitting up i started speaking to a guy i met on a trip 2 years ago (he flirted with me back then but i said i had a boyfriend and he backed off, but we hung out during the week of the trip) and we were just talking about university etc etc. Hes broke up with his ex a month or so ago after he found out she cheated on him for 4 months of their year long relationship.
However when i got back from the trip my boyfriend had seen pictures on social media that i had been tagged in from the last day of the trips "party" thing, and theres one of me and my friend Illesse smiling with our arms around eachother and he is next to me with his arm around my shoulder. Ever since then and since Illesse mentioned that the guy liked me infront of him, he hasnt liked the guy.
Anyway we started talking everyday, just casual talk (me and the guy from the trip). And then the second week after breaking up my ex asked to see me, i met up with him 3 days later and he said he wanted to try things and he would speak to his parents for me or if i wanted to i could too but he really wanted to try and make this work.
I said ok because i love the guy and ive been with him for 4 years and i dont just want to throw that time away, however the guy from the trip is so nice and genuine and i know if we got together sometime in the future he would make time to see me, his parents were more accepting of me (i met them at the end of the trip when they came to pick him up). And if im honest the more ive been speaking to him the more i find myself thinking about what it would be like if i was in a relationship with him instead. He had asked me to be his date for valentines day (this was before id spoken to my bf and decided to try things again. Im still speaking to him now even though my boyfriend doesnt like him (my bf doesnt know im speaking to him as he found out that he had asked me out for valentines and basically told me he would like it if i didnt speak to him. but i dont want to just say "im back with my boyfriend now i cant speak to you anymore" because if things dont work out id love to be able to speak to him again, even just as friends only.
Im just really confused with what i want.. I dont know whether to try and make this 4 year relationship work or call it a day and see how things go with the other guy..
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