I broke up with my girlfriend at the end of the summer holidays, or maybe around mid-August or something. Initially it was amicable, still remaining friends on social networks sites etc. Then things took a slight turn for a worse because of the constant reminders that I kept running into online. We had a heated argument and decided to delete each other from these sites "in the nicest way possible".
Two months on, outwardly I've been far more stoic about the whole thing. I'll probably look back in 5 years and think about how pathetic I was being. But every now and again, and as corny as this sounds, she's still in my dreams and it's always a painful reminder as to what once was as soon as I wake up.
I called her a while ago just to say hi, and about 20 seconds into a reasonably calm conversation, it cuts off. No reply, no call back. Understandable. I didn't want to try and call again because that would seem a bit sad (as if I hadn't passed that point already...)
My friend says moving on will help to some extent. I'm going out on the weekend with this one girl I know from school, and my friend suggests that I try and do something and move on with her. Who's to say she's even interested in me? I can't make out the signals. It would be nice to have a relationship once more, but how can I begin to try to while this keeps happening? Would it benefit me now or should I wait until university?
I don't mean to sound too whiny, but there's nobody else I can really talk to about this since that person isn't around at this moment in time. You know, half term holidays and whatnot.
Put the internet to work for you.
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