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Feel sick about my girlfriend...

Well I'll try to keep this short. Me and my girlfriend met in a club last summer, and at first we were just friends with benefits. I was pretty happy with this. Then she said she loved me, and I said it back, although I wasn't completely convinced with myself. She moved away to uni and now we're over 200 miles away from eachother.
Everything is going okay, although I kind of feel like she's my best friend rather than girlfriend right now. I don't get that "buzz" when I'm with her that I used to, and when she says how much she loves me and cute stuff like she misses me, I just don't feel as strongly, but I want to so much. I've even told her that I don't miss her, because I trust her so much and we skype every day... but she obviously doubts that reasoning and I am too. I also drunkenly told her that I think of her as my best friend and we'd still be great friends even if we broke up, which I intended well but she was upset about it. I probably think about her once a day, as opposed to my previous girlfriend who I thought about all the time (who cheated on me).
She's such an amazing girl and she cares about me so much and I care about her too. We tell eachother everything but I just can't tell her that I think I've lost the spark with her. I know it might be selfish but I want to just keep her as my girlfriend as I enjoy spending time with her so much when I visit or she visits me, and hope the spark reignites. I just don't think our relationship was strong enough to survive her moving away to uni to be honest, but I want to tough it out and hope things improve. The problem is now I can't look at photos of her without feeling completely nauseous. My friend thinks it's because I miss her, but I don't think it's that.. it's almost disgust but not at her... just general disgust. I'll be honest, when I look at photos there's really not much attraction as there used to be. Maybe I do just miss her.
Anyone else ever experienced this... or any long distance relationship advice in general? Cheers.

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