Hello TSR.
To describe my situation, I have to go into quite some detail. I will try my very best to not go on for too long, or go off on a tangent, but here goes:
I am having a hard time in life at the moment, due to many reasons, but the one that hits home is the fact that I got dumped for reasons that were unexplained, and I am feeling alone in the world with no one to turn too. I started college September 2012. I had just moved over from another country, left my whole life and my girl friend behind to start a new. I met someone new, someone special, someone I thought would one day become more than just a teenage relationship.
Although I had only just started college, Most of my friends were second year students. This, although right now may seem like an out of place point, will be part of the bigger picture.
So anyway. I was dating the most beautiful girl I had ever seen in my life. we were both happy, both beginning to rediscover each other in a more intimate way. This was new for both of us, but not to the same extent. 6 months down the line, I had to go to Spain for a maths trip. Whilst I was there, I learnt that she had spoken to her friends about her doubts if 'What if we don't work at uni', or 'What happens if I do someone stupid and he finds out?'. Later that night, I rung her to find out what she meant, and why she hadn't spoken to me about these doubts. If anyone, I would have been the one to settle them. Was I right to confront her over this?
Regardless, this sparked the one and only argument we had. left me rather broken inside. In some way I felt that her ignoring my attempts to just speak, going through countless pounds of credit trying to get in contact, was irrational, and intentionally hurtful.
A few days after this, I asked her if she was Ok. I was worried, feeling sorry for at the time I felt was a unnecessary argument. We made plans to meet up as soon as I got off the plane (well, within the hour, I had a bus ride between the airport and her). She gave me the money back for the trip we had planned to France, and the DvDs I had lent her. And she said 'I want a break up'.
Seriously, within an hour of coming home from a life changing experience, I was left in the gutter by the one who I thought I could count on in the darkest of times.
4 months down the line, and here we are. I am feeling ill, feeling rejected. All my friends have moved on to uni, and I am having a difficult time reintegrating to a new social group. With the pressure of being away from my family, not being able to rely on many people, and the academic pressure is taking it's toll on me.
I don't know if I should take a leap with a girl I kind of like, by something a long the likes of 'I was just wondering if you wanted to go out for a drink or something?'. I feel like I am holding myself back by the insecurities created by a breach of trust in previous relationships.
I need help TSR, please don't judge me on asking here as I have no one else to turn to.
To describe my situation, I have to go into quite some detail. I will try my very best to not go on for too long, or go off on a tangent, but here goes:
I am having a hard time in life at the moment, due to many reasons, but the one that hits home is the fact that I got dumped for reasons that were unexplained, and I am feeling alone in the world with no one to turn too. I started college September 2012. I had just moved over from another country, left my whole life and my girl friend behind to start a new. I met someone new, someone special, someone I thought would one day become more than just a teenage relationship.
Although I had only just started college, Most of my friends were second year students. This, although right now may seem like an out of place point, will be part of the bigger picture.
So anyway. I was dating the most beautiful girl I had ever seen in my life. we were both happy, both beginning to rediscover each other in a more intimate way. This was new for both of us, but not to the same extent. 6 months down the line, I had to go to Spain for a maths trip. Whilst I was there, I learnt that she had spoken to her friends about her doubts if 'What if we don't work at uni', or 'What happens if I do someone stupid and he finds out?'. Later that night, I rung her to find out what she meant, and why she hadn't spoken to me about these doubts. If anyone, I would have been the one to settle them. Was I right to confront her over this?
Regardless, this sparked the one and only argument we had. left me rather broken inside. In some way I felt that her ignoring my attempts to just speak, going through countless pounds of credit trying to get in contact, was irrational, and intentionally hurtful.
A few days after this, I asked her if she was Ok. I was worried, feeling sorry for at the time I felt was a unnecessary argument. We made plans to meet up as soon as I got off the plane (well, within the hour, I had a bus ride between the airport and her). She gave me the money back for the trip we had planned to France, and the DvDs I had lent her. And she said 'I want a break up'.
Seriously, within an hour of coming home from a life changing experience, I was left in the gutter by the one who I thought I could count on in the darkest of times.
4 months down the line, and here we are. I am feeling ill, feeling rejected. All my friends have moved on to uni, and I am having a difficult time reintegrating to a new social group. With the pressure of being away from my family, not being able to rely on many people, and the academic pressure is taking it's toll on me.
I don't know if I should take a leap with a girl I kind of like, by something a long the likes of 'I was just wondering if you wanted to go out for a drink or something?'. I feel like I am holding myself back by the insecurities created by a breach of trust in previous relationships.
I need help TSR, please don't judge me on asking here as I have no one else to turn to.
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