Hi all, thank goodness I have found this forum as I feel I am going to go mad. I used my husbands notepad several weeks ago as I could not be bothered to get mine out and his was out. What I found completely shocked me he had been watching porn. The pages were still there. I looked in the history which only went back and week and saw he had been on those and other pages previous to that. I monitored for several weeks looking when he was out. It was very frequent. Several months ago he told me he had no sex drive at all and we have not had sex for well over four months.
Just two days ago I looked again and found that week he had been watching on five separate days. I was so shocked, hurt and ashamed. I asked him about it two days ago asking did he still have no sex drive and he said no he didnt. So I then asked him why he had been watching porn on the internet, he sat opened mouthed for a few seconds and said he did not know why. I told him he must know why and he obviously did have a sex drive as he had been watching porn. He said he did not get aroused by it and he did not masterbate and he watched it because he was bored. Of course I find this very very hard to believe. I also mentioned to him that there were some chat website that he had been on but he said he never ever chatted to anyone. I asked him to tell me the truth but he would not change his story but he did say he would not do it again at which point he got up and picked up his notebook and I think he was about to either destroy or throw it in the trash and I told him he better not do that, he then left it on a table. it was there yesterday but today it is gone. I have a quick scout around when he was not around and could see no sign of it so I am now building myself up to asking him where it is. I have no idea if he is addicted or how long it has been going on and I feel he is repeatedly telling lies. I feel I am in a complete limbo at the moment and have no idea where I go from here so any ideas suggestion would be good.
Just two days ago I looked again and found that week he had been watching on five separate days. I was so shocked, hurt and ashamed. I asked him about it two days ago asking did he still have no sex drive and he said no he didnt. So I then asked him why he had been watching porn on the internet, he sat opened mouthed for a few seconds and said he did not know why. I told him he must know why and he obviously did have a sex drive as he had been watching porn. He said he did not get aroused by it and he did not masterbate and he watched it because he was bored. Of course I find this very very hard to believe. I also mentioned to him that there were some chat website that he had been on but he said he never ever chatted to anyone. I asked him to tell me the truth but he would not change his story but he did say he would not do it again at which point he got up and picked up his notebook and I think he was about to either destroy or throw it in the trash and I told him he better not do that, he then left it on a table. it was there yesterday but today it is gone. I have a quick scout around when he was not around and could see no sign of it so I am now building myself up to asking him where it is. I have no idea if he is addicted or how long it has been going on and I feel he is repeatedly telling lies. I feel I am in a complete limbo at the moment and have no idea where I go from here so any ideas suggestion would be good.
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