I'm generally a pretty confident person (or am at least able to fake it if I don't feel it), but I'm having a bit of a confidence crisis lately.
A few months ago, I was raped when I was living in China, and moved back home in a bit of a panic. I'm dealing with it pretty well now, I think, and have decided to return to China as I have a lot of good friends there, and a great career opportunity.
One thing I am still worried about now, is how to put myself out there again. I'm not in a big rush to meet men, but I am worried that no one will be interested in me after what happened. I've been to the clinic, and luckily don't have anything nasty, but I feel like I have a big VICTIM sign hanging over me that no one will want to go near. It's not like I'm going to bring it up right away, but I am at the point where I would like a relationship, and I don't want to have to lie about my past. But, at the same time, I don't want to scare people away, or be considered weak.
Am I just being crazy?
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