when Im around people i change so much,cant think of any words to say when I do speak my voice is high pitched like a toddler and mumbly
i walk with my head staring at the ground and if somebody's walking behind me i feel conscious
i also do things like drop stuff or bump into people and just act really awkward,inever contribute anything to conversations and i just smile this smile that makes me look like an idiot
no one takes me seriously and everyone thinks Im weird,i think people feel awkward around me sometimes too. i feel so awkward and conscious around people all the time
people keep calling me a good girl or say stuff like aww your sweet,sometimes people ask me if i smoke and when i say yes they just laugh and go oh yeah of course like YOU would ever do that! but Im not lying,no one can see me for who I am as I act so differently but i cant control it
when Im with my family Im a different person,they joke about my loud mouth.when Im alone,i walk so much more confidently and look ahead,naturally Im really chatty
when Im around people Im so insecure because of the way i act
I have been at uni nearly a year now and I havent made any friends because of this its like its impossible for me to come out of my shell and be myself , if around people for even an afternoon i spend the next few days by myself just so i can feel like me again,i was so different with my friends from school but we dont talk now
what do i do?
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