This will be the 7th year of being "black balled" from wifey's xmas work party b/c her (toxic) friend decided "no husbands" allowed b/c hers' got really drunk and caused a problem there. I was included in this b/c I was hanging with him at the time of the event, but I didn't in anyway involve myself in to what happened. I feel because I was around him at the time, that was included in this nonsense of not being invited.
So my wife's friend decided many years back "no hubbies" allowed. My wife agrees to this, and now this year (7 years on); I seemed to take it personal about not going (once again). She asked "why do you make a big deal about going? It's only going to be the people from work. You'll be the only guy there. No one else is bringing their husbands."
It's at a hall that's attached to a regular bar. So I'm thinking of going to spend that night with my kids at a very close relatives house. I don't even want to see her getting all dressed up and looking good to go out while I stay home to be the babysitter for the night. I'm tired of it. 7 years of staying home knowing she's dressed amazing and not being able to be by her side makes me feel sad. When I think about it we don't share these social events a whole lot where the both of us are dressed up and having fun (other than a wedding from time to time).
Throughout the years of this, I put the kids to bed, I'm sitting home bored out of my mind just feeling horrible about wanting to be out there with her as a couple. I'm tired of it, and I feel that I should just leave before I have to be home watching her get all dressed up looking hot while I stay home. It hurts.
I feel that by leaving early to go to a relatives over night will avoid my hurt feelings, and I won't have to be home to see her leave so sexy or even come home to me feeling sad. I just want to be done of these moments that are 7 years strong. I feel it's important to go to causal gatherings together as a couple. We will see. :(
So my wife's friend decided many years back "no hubbies" allowed. My wife agrees to this, and now this year (7 years on); I seemed to take it personal about not going (once again). She asked "why do you make a big deal about going? It's only going to be the people from work. You'll be the only guy there. No one else is bringing their husbands."
It's at a hall that's attached to a regular bar. So I'm thinking of going to spend that night with my kids at a very close relatives house. I don't even want to see her getting all dressed up and looking good to go out while I stay home to be the babysitter for the night. I'm tired of it. 7 years of staying home knowing she's dressed amazing and not being able to be by her side makes me feel sad. When I think about it we don't share these social events a whole lot where the both of us are dressed up and having fun (other than a wedding from time to time).
Throughout the years of this, I put the kids to bed, I'm sitting home bored out of my mind just feeling horrible about wanting to be out there with her as a couple. I'm tired of it, and I feel that I should just leave before I have to be home watching her get all dressed up looking hot while I stay home. It hurts.
I feel that by leaving early to go to a relatives over night will avoid my hurt feelings, and I won't have to be home to see her leave so sexy or even come home to me feeling sad. I just want to be done of these moments that are 7 years strong. I feel it's important to go to causal gatherings together as a couple. We will see. :(
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