In light of recent threads, I've found the confidence to discuss my story. It's a rather sensitive issue for me, so I'd appreciate if people treated it as such. I assure you everything here is factual (to my knowledge). I feel no need to anon as I don't believe anyone who knows me personally knows I'm on this site.
Earlier this year I went on a holiday with 5 other guys to Zante, some of you may have heard of it. Long story short, one crazy night, had too much to drink and I blacked out (stupid I know, I didn't realise I was over my limit). There's like a an hour or two chunk missing out my life. The last thing I remember is I was in the middle of the club dancing, mainly with this one girl and my friends, I do remember making out with the girl a few times, but then it gets hazy. My friends told me that at one point she slipped on the floor, I helped her up and then we left together. Don't know why they didn't stop me, obviously I've got terrible friends.
When I came to, my friend was rubbing my back, all I had on was boxers, and I threw up. Apparently some lads (who were also at the same hotel) found me in a state, and my friend found me with them. Anyway after throwing up I felt much better, I think the alcohol I had was dodgy (it was called Ouzo?).
I'm pretty sure I had sex because my penis had that just had sex feeling, like still dripping of stuff, guys will know what I mean hopefully. And there was a used condom of the floor next my bed (I don't think I ejaculated thankfully), also there was makeup all over the bed sheets and a girls lip gloss on the bed side.
At first I took it lightly, and felt it was more of an accomplishment, but as time went on I've felt more ashamed and used. I don't recall the girls name and it took me two days before I remembered her face. Recent threads have made me realised I clearly taken advantage of, I just don't know what to do. I keep trying to recall everything, but only little bits come back, like I remember going down on her now, but I think she forced me cause her hand was on the back of my head keeping me in place, I don't usually do that with strangers. There's still a big black blur, that I fear I will never get back.
What should I do? Was I sexually assaulted? Who should I talk to? I went to a clinic for a check up, and thankfully I'm all clear btw.
Serious responses only please. I have never till now, discussed this with anyone other than the guys I went on holiday with.
Earlier this year I went on a holiday with 5 other guys to Zante, some of you may have heard of it. Long story short, one crazy night, had too much to drink and I blacked out (stupid I know, I didn't realise I was over my limit). There's like a an hour or two chunk missing out my life. The last thing I remember is I was in the middle of the club dancing, mainly with this one girl and my friends, I do remember making out with the girl a few times, but then it gets hazy. My friends told me that at one point she slipped on the floor, I helped her up and then we left together. Don't know why they didn't stop me, obviously I've got terrible friends.
When I came to, my friend was rubbing my back, all I had on was boxers, and I threw up. Apparently some lads (who were also at the same hotel) found me in a state, and my friend found me with them. Anyway after throwing up I felt much better, I think the alcohol I had was dodgy (it was called Ouzo?).
I'm pretty sure I had sex because my penis had that just had sex feeling, like still dripping of stuff, guys will know what I mean hopefully. And there was a used condom of the floor next my bed (I don't think I ejaculated thankfully), also there was makeup all over the bed sheets and a girls lip gloss on the bed side.
At first I took it lightly, and felt it was more of an accomplishment, but as time went on I've felt more ashamed and used. I don't recall the girls name and it took me two days before I remembered her face. Recent threads have made me realised I clearly taken advantage of, I just don't know what to do. I keep trying to recall everything, but only little bits come back, like I remember going down on her now, but I think she forced me cause her hand was on the back of my head keeping me in place, I don't usually do that with strangers. There's still a big black blur, that I fear I will never get back.
What should I do? Was I sexually assaulted? Who should I talk to? I went to a clinic for a check up, and thankfully I'm all clear btw.
Serious responses only please. I have never till now, discussed this with anyone other than the guys I went on holiday with.
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