I'm 20 years old, never been kissed, never had boyfriend, still a virgin, etc. Most of my friends are in relationships or have at least had more experience than me, some are engaged and some are even married.
I have been bullied my entire life for being ugly. One boy told me I'm so ugly I'll never get married and said I look like a crow. He even asked people "Do you think she's ever gonna get married?".
People are repulsed by the way I look, they cross the street to avoid looking at me. I walked past a couple once and the boy actually pulled his girlfriend in closer when they saw me because they were so disgusted by my appearance. I was at a bus stop opposite my town's hospital and a nurse was sitting at the bench talking on her phone. As soon as I approached to stand in the bus stop she got up and moved away from me and looked back at me with fear in her eyes.
I feel really upset because its not my fault I'm hideous. I really want to start a family one day but I have to accept that this will never happen. I've seen really ugly people with families, yes but even they're more attractive than me.
I feel so disgusted in myself. I'm a freak. My hair is a mess. My skin is awful. I have weird features. I hate my body. I'm not the right height. I want to have a full plastic surgery transformation when I'm older and can afford it but I just wish I wasn't so pathetic.
What should I do? :(
I have been bullied my entire life for being ugly. One boy told me I'm so ugly I'll never get married and said I look like a crow. He even asked people "Do you think she's ever gonna get married?".
People are repulsed by the way I look, they cross the street to avoid looking at me. I walked past a couple once and the boy actually pulled his girlfriend in closer when they saw me because they were so disgusted by my appearance. I was at a bus stop opposite my town's hospital and a nurse was sitting at the bench talking on her phone. As soon as I approached to stand in the bus stop she got up and moved away from me and looked back at me with fear in her eyes.
I feel really upset because its not my fault I'm hideous. I really want to start a family one day but I have to accept that this will never happen. I've seen really ugly people with families, yes but even they're more attractive than me.
I feel so disgusted in myself. I'm a freak. My hair is a mess. My skin is awful. I have weird features. I hate my body. I'm not the right height. I want to have a full plastic surgery transformation when I'm older and can afford it but I just wish I wasn't so pathetic.
What should I do? :(
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