Anon for the sheer embarrassment of the whole thing.
Okay so me and my uni friends (I'm 1st year) went to a club last night, all got a bit too drunk.
Aside from the standard embarrassing things you do when you're drunk, I have a drunk-crush on one guy. For those that don't understand, it means I only fancy him when I'm drunk. Sober he is literally just a friend.
So I think I started dancing with him, but others were around so it wasn't distinctly just us together. He danced with me, I remember him at one point starting to run his hands over my leg and bum on purpose, so I obviously took that in a certain way.
I have an extremely vague memory which has just come back to me of me at some point trying to kiss him. As far as my memory goes, I think I may have sort of grabbed him and got my face really close to his. I don't know if I actually tried to kiss him or was just giving him the opportunity to kiss me. I do remember getting a vibe I was going to be utterly rejected for some reason - maybe he looked the other way or took a few seconds to not kiss me and just did nothing - I really cannot remember exactly for the life of me. That memory is a massive blur and it might not even be true...but I doubt I dreamed it? I don't know who saw, how close I was to him, whether my friends spoke to each other about it, whether it was obvious I was rejected - or nearly rejected. I don't even know whether if I'd have waited another second he would have kissed me.
Basically tried to get with him and then pulled away because he either rejected me or I felt like he was going to reject me, in a nutshell. And as a result, I am absolutely mortified at the possibility I might have literally grabbed him, pulled him towards me, tried to kiss him and he turned away right in front of my friends.
I'm not close enough to speak to him about it - perhaps he was so smashed he doesn't remember himself. I'm not really asking for advice on how to handle it - I won't do anything except pretend I have no idea that I did it and blame the alcohol.
I guess I just needed to tell someone who doesn't know who I am haha... And ask for any suggestions on why he'd start running has hands over my waist and bum while dancing then not want to kiss me when I full on gave my lips to him on a plate.
I don't know about you, but I don't touch a guy up on a dancefloor (well, I don't do that anyway) if I don't fancy him and want to get with him that night.
Okay so me and my uni friends (I'm 1st year) went to a club last night, all got a bit too drunk.
Aside from the standard embarrassing things you do when you're drunk, I have a drunk-crush on one guy. For those that don't understand, it means I only fancy him when I'm drunk. Sober he is literally just a friend.
So I think I started dancing with him, but others were around so it wasn't distinctly just us together. He danced with me, I remember him at one point starting to run his hands over my leg and bum on purpose, so I obviously took that in a certain way.
I have an extremely vague memory which has just come back to me of me at some point trying to kiss him. As far as my memory goes, I think I may have sort of grabbed him and got my face really close to his. I don't know if I actually tried to kiss him or was just giving him the opportunity to kiss me. I do remember getting a vibe I was going to be utterly rejected for some reason - maybe he looked the other way or took a few seconds to not kiss me and just did nothing - I really cannot remember exactly for the life of me. That memory is a massive blur and it might not even be true...but I doubt I dreamed it? I don't know who saw, how close I was to him, whether my friends spoke to each other about it, whether it was obvious I was rejected - or nearly rejected. I don't even know whether if I'd have waited another second he would have kissed me.
Basically tried to get with him and then pulled away because he either rejected me or I felt like he was going to reject me, in a nutshell. And as a result, I am absolutely mortified at the possibility I might have literally grabbed him, pulled him towards me, tried to kiss him and he turned away right in front of my friends.
I'm not close enough to speak to him about it - perhaps he was so smashed he doesn't remember himself. I'm not really asking for advice on how to handle it - I won't do anything except pretend I have no idea that I did it and blame the alcohol.
I guess I just needed to tell someone who doesn't know who I am haha... And ask for any suggestions on why he'd start running has hands over my waist and bum while dancing then not want to kiss me when I full on gave my lips to him on a plate.
I don't know about you, but I don't touch a guy up on a dancefloor (well, I don't do that anyway) if I don't fancy him and want to get with him that night.
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