Ok, this sucks to post and talk about but I have been married for 10 years and my wife is my 1st and only sexual partner. She really is the nicest, caring loving person I have ever known. We got married young, Im soon to be 31 and she is now 30. (we also have 2 kids together, and yes I know this makes things even worse)
BUT lately... (not really lately but the feelings have grown MUCH stronger this past few weeks)
Ive been having very strong feelings for our friend/co worker. (we all work together, I cant get a new job its my families business and I cant fire her because it would be unfair to fire her because of me) Me and this girl work together around 5 days a week (just me and her) and my wife works night. So we really dont see each other but to watch a movie/tv at night, And the "family sundays" Which is more stressful then fun.
Sorry my post is all over the place. But lately I cannot get this friend out of my head, and I KNOW im pushing my wife away not talking with her, and when we do watch movies we dont even cuddle, normally shes on her phone playing a game or something and "Watching" the movie. (although how im feeling atm I dont really want to even cuddle with her/talk to her) When im with my wife I just think about our friend/coworker, I TRY to stop thinking about her but I cant. I know everyone will say try harder, put distance between you and this friend but honestly I cant. I dont know what to do, I feel sick all the time because of it. And im pretty sure im depressed.
I know when I think about it, and being with this friend, it doesnt end up working out no matter how much I want it too...
again im sorry how this post is made I really am all over the place here and im sorry you have to read through this jumble.
If you have any question/responses please leave them. Again I KNOW this message is just crazy scattered I just cant seem to think at the moment and I have never posted something like this because, its just spur of the moment because ive been looking this stuff up for the past few days... Sorry again, and thank you, if you managed to read all this lol....
BUT lately... (not really lately but the feelings have grown MUCH stronger this past few weeks)
Ive been having very strong feelings for our friend/co worker. (we all work together, I cant get a new job its my families business and I cant fire her because it would be unfair to fire her because of me) Me and this girl work together around 5 days a week (just me and her) and my wife works night. So we really dont see each other but to watch a movie/tv at night, And the "family sundays" Which is more stressful then fun.
Sorry my post is all over the place. But lately I cannot get this friend out of my head, and I KNOW im pushing my wife away not talking with her, and when we do watch movies we dont even cuddle, normally shes on her phone playing a game or something and "Watching" the movie. (although how im feeling atm I dont really want to even cuddle with her/talk to her) When im with my wife I just think about our friend/coworker, I TRY to stop thinking about her but I cant. I know everyone will say try harder, put distance between you and this friend but honestly I cant. I dont know what to do, I feel sick all the time because of it. And im pretty sure im depressed.
I know when I think about it, and being with this friend, it doesnt end up working out no matter how much I want it too...
again im sorry how this post is made I really am all over the place here and im sorry you have to read through this jumble.
If you have any question/responses please leave them. Again I KNOW this message is just crazy scattered I just cant seem to think at the moment and I have never posted something like this because, its just spur of the moment because ive been looking this stuff up for the past few days... Sorry again, and thank you, if you managed to read all this lol....
Put the internet to work for you.
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