Well, sort of a complaint about my own behavior. In previous posts, I have read and have posted about getting over things, moving forward and what type of triggers cause "flash backs"...
Well, over the last few days, I had been feeling rather low and empty, I just could not shake the crappy, lost, alone, weird feeling I had, like I lost something and could not pin point it..
Then the 18th arrived, then I remembered this would have been my 31st anniversary. ... Freaked me the heck out. I thought I was fine, then walla... here is the anniversary date.
With that said, It sort made me feel like a loser, (I know that is not true) I took such pride in having a long term marriage. (thick, thin, good, bad...etc..) I will again... I get that.
Well, here is the depth of it. I am typically a very strong person but then I almost fell apart mentally on the 18th. You just never know what can happen..
I am better today however I was surprised at how it effected me and to what extent. Almost took the wind out of my sails, but I am still am moving forward and being positive..
To be honest, I miss being in a relationship. Not to the point of just going for anything ..BTW.. a healthy relationship would be awesome. I am good with being single, except for days like that...
Well, over the last few days, I had been feeling rather low and empty, I just could not shake the crappy, lost, alone, weird feeling I had, like I lost something and could not pin point it..
Then the 18th arrived, then I remembered this would have been my 31st anniversary. ... Freaked me the heck out. I thought I was fine, then walla... here is the anniversary date.
With that said, It sort made me feel like a loser, (I know that is not true) I took such pride in having a long term marriage. (thick, thin, good, bad...etc..) I will again... I get that.
Well, here is the depth of it. I am typically a very strong person but then I almost fell apart mentally on the 18th. You just never know what can happen..
I am better today however I was surprised at how it effected me and to what extent. Almost took the wind out of my sails, but I am still am moving forward and being positive..
To be honest, I miss being in a relationship. Not to the point of just going for anything ..BTW.. a healthy relationship would be awesome. I am good with being single, except for days like that...
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