Hello, I love my girlfriend very much, however something that has always bothered me about her is that before we met, she experimented with Class A drugs like cocaine, ecstasy, MDMA, as well as smoking week with her Mum, doing mushrooms with her Mum and one or two other drugs I've forgotten about.
She said she didn't like the drugs (cocaine was only tried once) which is why she doesn't touch anything any more. But my concern is that her moral compass would allow her to try street drugs in toilet cubicles in the first place. I know she tried ecstasy a few times - how many times would you need to try something to know you didn't like it? There just seems something fishy about it. I really get the impression that the rule of thumb is: she can't talk to me about it as she knows I look down upon it, however I picture her happily discussing it with her drug user friends and I picture her being very fine with that, bordering glorifying it.
One of her paticulary scummy friends recently offered her cocaine as well. She can't comprehend why this annoys me so much. But then, when you grow up doing drugs with your own Mother as a teenager, I assume your outlook on what the rest of the world may perceive as dodgy behaviour will be different. I think her Mother failed her in this regards, and cracked open the door for future drug use.
I can't talk to her about it as all she does is get angry with me for bringing it up. I will be seeing a counsellor so that I have somebody to talk with.
Has anybody else been in this situation or one similar? I'm having very negative thought ccles where everything will be fine one minute, very happy, then I'll jkust look at her and think, how the **** were ou ever popping pills and snorting drugs like a scum bag?
She said she didn't like the drugs (cocaine was only tried once) which is why she doesn't touch anything any more. But my concern is that her moral compass would allow her to try street drugs in toilet cubicles in the first place. I know she tried ecstasy a few times - how many times would you need to try something to know you didn't like it? There just seems something fishy about it. I really get the impression that the rule of thumb is: she can't talk to me about it as she knows I look down upon it, however I picture her happily discussing it with her drug user friends and I picture her being very fine with that, bordering glorifying it.
One of her paticulary scummy friends recently offered her cocaine as well. She can't comprehend why this annoys me so much. But then, when you grow up doing drugs with your own Mother as a teenager, I assume your outlook on what the rest of the world may perceive as dodgy behaviour will be different. I think her Mother failed her in this regards, and cracked open the door for future drug use.
I can't talk to her about it as all she does is get angry with me for bringing it up. I will be seeing a counsellor so that I have somebody to talk with.
Has anybody else been in this situation or one similar? I'm having very negative thought ccles where everything will be fine one minute, very happy, then I'll jkust look at her and think, how the **** were ou ever popping pills and snorting drugs like a scum bag?
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