I like this guy in my school, never talk to him, never said hi or smile in the hallways, just random awkward exchanging of eye contact when we passed by each other. Our school has only bout 400 people and it's a boarding school so i do see him around quite a lot.
Anyway, i have only knew of his existence for about 5 months but i think i have now reach my breaking point, i am going crazy. For the past 5 months and until now (even though i havent seen him for about a month due to school break) i think about him almost every waking hour. Whatever i do, he is on my mind. I feel so stupid, like seriously idiotic to be doing this. Man im pretty sure he doesn't even know my name.
i must admit i do know quite a handful of info about him from some (well very intense and crazy) social media stalking and because of that i feel so connected to him. I must admit that i like most of the stuff that he likes, and i am the kind of person who always like weird stuff (like my taste in music) so i was so excited to finally found someone like me! He also does something that i don't do (like literature and music instrument) which makes me admire him, it's a weird feeling like i just think he is so perfect.
It gets even worse if i am in school. I literally search for him everywhere i go, it makes me sick. And i get upset or bored if i don't see him. He certainly does **** up with my school life. I have had crushes but this one is the strongest, so so far stronger than the other and i don't know what to do to make this feeling go away. I thought it will fade away during this one month holiday but no no, it just doesn't go away.
Has anyone of you felt the same way? Mind to tell me about it so i can convince myself i am not too crazy?
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