This is something which has been bugging me for a while. I feel like it messed me up in terms of having a relationship with a woman. From the ages of 11-16 I barely spoke to a girl my age. There are other factors at play here such as coming from a family with only brothers and my hobbies being mainly masculine such as Sunday football and watching football and my mum being terrified of letting me out of the house at those ages in case something 'bad' happened.
So basically I did not have a chance to mix with girls, the result of this is that I am poor socially with women. I find it difficult to connect. Due to my lack of exposure to women at a young age I frequently watched porn to fill the void, 3 or 4 times a day. The result of this is very bad. The only joy I get from women is sex, because I was never able to get joy from conversations etc or just having a normal friendly relationship because I feel like I was prevented from having this. I have tried hard to change this but its as if my brain has been wired to feel this way. Maybe I'm over thinking, maybe I haven't met the right women but I feel as if going to an all boys school is not healthy
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