Alright so I have Facebook right now and the reason I have it is because i'm on a gap year and I don't really keep in contact. But to me its depressing sometimes seeing pictures of what people are doing. I try and write statuses and rarely are they liked, maybe the odd time but most times no one interacts - even with normal statuses. I even posted an interesting albulm of my holiday to America and not one person liked a single pictures? I don't know if this is jealousy or my pictures are boring??
I've noticed that people are using facebook as a popularity kind of thing and comment alot on "popular" people. I am now 19 and left school in June, I was happy to reach 19 as I felt that finally people would grow up and drop this nonsense because of maturing attitude..
I would honestly love to delete Facebook but I don't really have much contact due to gap year. Although it knocks my confidence and makes me feel like there is something weird and odd about me.
I am trying to get a solution to this but for me I can and have never been able to get Facebook to work with me, it doesn't matter who I have added or how many people I have added I rarely get a like or comment. It almost seems as though there is an invisible negative image around me.
I have been unpopular or at least not got many friends all through secondary school and people called me "gay" even though I am not (don't care anyway why does it matter) so no one bothered with me and it really does make me feel like crying when I think back and in a way I still kind of feel as though these people still see me like this. I have been trying to get validation from these people for years and I am quite surprised that they still see me in a negative light. I am worried about university and I hope it isn't like this!! I want my potential to be gained.
I look in the mirror and see a normal late teen yet I don't have too many friends and I have no confidence and always feel as though I have to beat myself up alot. I am sick of trying to get approval.
Put the internet to work for you.
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