No matter how much progress I make, I cannot heal. When will this ever go away? I keep revisiting his affair, his hurtful words, how he humiliated me on purpose for loving him, then humiliated me more for my pain and made fun of it. The pain his betrayal and his declaration of "I tried to love you but couldn't." He's a loser, he doesn't deserve me, and never did. But he's hurt me so much. In ways I never imagined, and continues to do so at every damn turn. Whether with our kid's drop off or pick up, or our last mediation sessions for divorce, etc. I'm consumed. And the OW, I saw her the other day, she walked on and pretended not to see me. of course it had to be the day I looked like ****. It just never stops. How do I make this stop? I go to therapy, try to keep busy, think about a better future, etc. But then I close my eyes and she or he pop in my head. It's been a year already. MAKE IT STOP. What next? What now? I don't want a rebound and hurt a guy j ust to make myself feel better, but that's assuming someone would want me. What if he's right and no one would? He's the only man I dated, kissed slept with, and married. He's all I've known for the last 9 years. What do I do now?
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