So, this is a long and very stupid story. I almost can't believe that it still actually happened to me, but here goes.
In late November, my "friend" (Person A) decided to push this girl we both knew (who I played a lot of PS4 with) to tell me about how she liked me.
Now, I'm not the healthiest person mentally, so I honestly couldn't understand why she liked me, and I reacted in a less than stellar way. She began to blank me after I told her that I would find it difficult to be with her due to my ultra conservative parents- dating was a big NO. Eventually, she apologised and we had a three hour conversation from then and I realised that I did want a relationship, consequences be damned.
So, I asked person A whether he liked her (twice, in fact) because of all the time they'd spent together in that week. He said no.
When we next say each other, me and her got together. Later that day, A texted me telling me that he'd cried last night after because of me getting with her.
The next day, he started telling me of how he was going to self harm and crap like that. Now, with my own mental state, I decided that taking it seriously would be the best course of action, so I tried to be a good friend to him. Eventually, he started telling me that I was the reason for all of his relationship troubles (or lack there of), at which point, I gave up.
After school resumed this year, he decided to tell me that all of the texts that had been sent were from a friend of his, and only some of it was true, which I didn't believe for a minute, seeing as they'd been sent at like 9am on a Saturday.
Anyway, the relationship fell apart after she decided that (even though I'd trusted her with my innermost secrets) I was getting distant, because I didn't text her for a couple of days (in actual fact, my grandmother was in the hospital abroad and my Dad was going to see her). What's worse is that I found this out from a partially mutual friend who she'd spoken to before me. I'm not wrong here, now am I?
Bringing it all together, this happened on Tuesday, and on Wednesday, after being pushed by a close friend, I decided to come clean to her, and see if that changed anything, which it didn't.
So, here I am, absolutely heartbroken after putting more in than anyone knew and risking so much, only to be shot down because I lacked in communicating to her.
Anyway, I've cut all contact with her, because her blatant lying and the fact that she didn't trust me when I did, regardless of how incredibly difficult it had been for me, was too much to bear.
A knows we're not together anymore, yet today, I find him and her on their own looking cosy as they walked.
Am I right in wanting to cut all contact with him too? Or am I overreacting whilst in my state?
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