When I was 14 my dad kidnapped me and my brother from the United states and took us to Germany . After he tried to marry me off to a 37 year old there he sent me over seas supposidly to visit family.the day we went to the airport he told I was meeting a man that was interested in marrying me. After arriving in Lebanon went out for about 3 days then him and his family insisted that we should get ingaged so no one would talk bad about us so we did. On the 6th day I was there we had an engagement party and I wasn't allowed to tell anyone in my family. I was alone 15 years old overseas sitting next to a man that was 12 years older than me. After that he took me to his sisters house were he started to sexually touch me I said no but he persisted that now I was his wife. I told him this was an engagement. He said I could I would rape you but I'm not like that. After that I hated him badly. I went back to Germany and told my dad I hated him and didn't want to marry him all my dad cared about was rather I lost my virginity or not. My dad and his wife continued to make me feel guilty for him and he was crying in the phone so I gave it another chance. After that my father pulled me out of school and put me to work in his restaurant slash bar. I worked everyday from morning till night. I spoke with my husband here and there. My dad started to treat me horribly bad calling me dirty names and stuff finally one day he beat me up so bad and punched me in the face multiple times for not cleaning off the bar. As he was hitting me he asked me if I wanted to go to my fiancé ( husband now) I said yes because I was mad. My dad called him and told him come take this $&@re she's from the streets you can have her . I left to Lebanon and he ended up taking my virginity in his family's house with his dad and two brothers in the other room. No wedding ended up getting pregnant at 16 he forced me to get an abortion alone it was horrible and scary. Then he took me to Saudi Arabia where at 17 he purposely got me pregnant to stay with him because I found my mom and was talking about coming back to America . After I had my daughter I changed mentally and we fought like cats and dogs . I had an iud in and got pregnant again.he pushed me while pregnant over which room we should make our living room. Attacked me in my car in front of my two kids scratched my face choked me put hole in my hand. I never loved this man I hate him!!!! I can't forgive him he's done allot more I've been with him for 12 years now I'm dying inside I'm starting to hate life I need to get away. I told him I don't love him many times. All wants is intercourse I feel like an animal . My family says it's the past but it hurts like it's happening now. I'm crying now as I write this. This isn't eveything, I'm very sad, how can you forgive a person that hurt you so much? I want him to leave ,but I know he won't .
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