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I have been married for 11 years and have a 6 year old son with my husband. My husband has a problem with prescription medication. He has stolen many pills of various prescriptions I have had in the past several years. He has had severe insomnia since his late teens, early twenties and I know this is a major problem for him. He has a few different medications prescribed to him for this. The problem is he will take what should be a months worth of meds in a week or so then he steals my medication. He falls asleep watching TV, in the middle of dinner in mid sentence and at times staggers around and talks complete nonsense in front of our son. I found out recently that I have a herniated disk in my back and have been in excruciating pain only to find that half of my pain medicine has vanished. He is more concerned about getting high than his wife being in horrible pain and try going to your doctor and telling them that you have run out of your narcoti c pain medicine in 2 weeks when it should have lasted a month, they don't take that we'll and treat you as a drug seeker. I don't even take it as often as I could so I actually would have more left than I should. I also have insomnia for which I am prescribed medication and I don't take that every night but somehow that has come up short also. I have confronted him about this in the past and gotten him to admit it eventually and he gave me the excuse that he was ashamed to tell me. I have confronted him recently when he has been obviously impaired in front of my son who has said "Daddy's acting weird " and he says he will stop but it continues. My father was and still is an alcoholic and drug addict. I grew up seeing my father act the same way as my husband and do not want my son to go through that, it has had a huge impact on my life and I did stop speaking with my father a few years ago after he refused to let me get him in treatment and I found out he had stolen my brother's identity to go to Emergency rooms for narcotics and also take out several loans that he didn't pay back and ruining my brother's credit. My husband is adamant that he did not steal my pain medication this time (60 of 120 pills)! And I also found today that I have come up short on my sleep medicine. I have hidden any medication that I thought he might take for years now until he finds my hiding spot and I have to keep changing where I keep them. I know that this is not good for my son to witness or for me to let him put us through. I also found many emails about searching on Craigslist to meet up for anonymous sex and actual plans to meet up with people, male and female. He said that this was just a fantasy thing and he never actually followed through with it. I am so tired of him looking me straight in my eyes and lying. I do not think I really love him anymore but I fear being alone and I am scared of divorcing him also because I would have to share custod y of my son and can not bare the thought of being away from him for any length of time or sharing holidays and all the things that come with a divorce. I also cannot keep him away from his father because my son of course adores him and I don't think that would be good for him either. I have no family around, the closest is over 6 hours away. I can not afford to live on my own and he could not afford to pay me child support! I don't know what to do, I know I need to do what's best for my son, not to mention myself. I would like to get my husband professional help but when I bring it up he just gets defensive and angry and somehow turns it around like I have done something wrong. Any thoughts?

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