I've been gone for a few months, still trying different things on my own and I finally came to terms with reality. I've given up sex, intimacy, writing letters, initiating talks etc, everything to try and save or rebuild a traditional marriage because it isn't meant to be. I've been sticking to being companions, friends, still sharing a bed and just trying to have fun and I'm learning that with no stress to try and save something that isn't there, I have no stress, which is a welcome change for me.
I've poured my heart, soul, sweat, tears and sacrificed so much and I now truly believe that marriage just isn't mean to be for me. You can't do all of the right things twice and still lose and think you will strike gold on a 3rd try.
Maybe one day she'll realize what she lost and maybe not, but no more cheap imitations for me, we'll stay legally married and I'll let her keep pretending that we are great, but I'm done pretending. Heartbroken no more!!
I've poured my heart, soul, sweat, tears and sacrificed so much and I now truly believe that marriage just isn't mean to be for me. You can't do all of the right things twice and still lose and think you will strike gold on a 3rd try.
Maybe one day she'll realize what she lost and maybe not, but no more cheap imitations for me, we'll stay legally married and I'll let her keep pretending that we are great, but I'm done pretending. Heartbroken no more!!
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