I started working with my husband (call in D) in 2004. I was married to someone else and he was just getting married. We remained somewhat friends until 2010 when things changed..we fell in love. Yes, I was still married and divorced my husband of 20 years (we have 2 children). D was single. I married D in 2012 and had a daughter with him. I know a lot about D. I know he used to look at porn all the time and caught him at work once, in an upstairs office, jerking off. This was before I had feelings for him. It honestly grossed me out that he would do that with me in the building nevermind the Boss could walk in at any time. He also used to webchat (aka jerk off to women on webcams while they masturbate etc). He was on several adult sites (adultfriendfinder, swappernet, etc. to many to name.) I found the sites, broke into them and was shocked at some of the stuff he used to do and pics he put up of himself. His first marriage ended with him leaving his wif e for someone he met online. She was the 3rd woman he had cheated on his wife with from adult website meets. She left him for someone else after only about 2 years of marriage for a guy she met on the internet. D was devastated but moved on quick with a new chic within days of her leaving. While with his first and second wife he did all the porn watching he could, massage parlors for happy endings, webcams, you name it he did it. I was aware of all of this when we got together because he is a good guy (believe it or not) and I trusted he would stop because he said he would. He said initially he looked at porn, etc. because he wasn't happily married the first time. Okay, I understood, kind of. But then he carried on with his second wife the same way. I saw him do it at work, saw emails to meet women in CL (he swears he never did), lots of chatting, you name it. She left as you know. Onto his girlfriend after the 2 failed marriages. He was still looking at porn but not as mu ch but still cruising CL for hookups although he claims he never did meet anyone. He promised to stop all porn BS with me. After only 2 months living together I found it on his work computer. I freaked and he claimed he was an addict and promised to stop. I haven't found any since, but have found nude pics. He doesn't do that anymore or so I can see. Our job now has a porn block on the web so he can't. But he can still look at tits and ass, graphic pics if he should choose too. In conversation I have found out a lot of stuff he lied about to be true later. Things he said he never did with 2nd wife he did do (for example massage parlors). I recently found out he looked at child porn. This is freaking me out. He said only once he stumbled across it. My question was direct: did you watch it and jerk off to it? He said yes. I found out the other day it was more than once and he got upset with me when I asked how old they the kids were. I don't know what to do or thing. I feel si ck. I love him to pieces and he really is a good man with a big problem. I can go on and on about things but that is the bulk of it. Please comment.
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