When our 3 year old son was born, both me and my DH lost our jobs and went trough a difficult period and financial problems, with lost of fights that put a toll on our relationship.
After 1 year I managed to get a freelance job that was a blessing for us in order to pay our bills and keep our heads above the water.
After about 6 months after that my husband also find a new job and I continued freelancing since it was a good thing to do in order to properly find a good nursery to our son and do all the induction period. Also, he was sick many times on the first 5 months in the nursery so it was good to work from home because I could easily pick him and stay at home with him.
In the meanwhile I even won 2 more clients. But after a while my main client started to pass me less and less work and we started to struggle financially. Because my son was only 3 days at the nursery I didn't have the proper time to market myself and gain new clients and so we decided that I should look for a full-time job.
Well, I started in a full-time job 2 months ago and I'm feeling soooooo unhappy! I miss so much being a freelance, not having a boss or being stuck in an office all week, organising my days myself. I need freedom in order to perform at my best and I just feel I'm drowning. Yes, we now have financial security but I don't feel happy.
My husband loves comfort and stability and makes me a lot of pressure to keep my job. I've told him that I want to get back into freelancing or starting an online business (that is my dream) but he doesn't support me much on that and we even had a lot of arguments about it. Basically he's scared to go trough financial problems again, which I totally understand, but I don't want to have a secure life and be totally unhappy!
I also would like to have more support from my partner which I don't. He doesn't care if I'm unhappy or if my personality doesn't suit a traditional 9-5 office job. He even told me that I have to prepare myself to not go back into being self-employed again!
I just think there's more to life than this. I've asked my employer if I could work from home at least 1 day per week and they've said no.
Well, I've had "employee" type parents that always make me pressure to just grab a 9-5 job and shut up, not giving a damn to how I am and what I want and now my husband does the same to me?
I need some advice please. I just don't discuss this with my DH anymore since it always ends with a big fight.
After 1 year I managed to get a freelance job that was a blessing for us in order to pay our bills and keep our heads above the water.
After about 6 months after that my husband also find a new job and I continued freelancing since it was a good thing to do in order to properly find a good nursery to our son and do all the induction period. Also, he was sick many times on the first 5 months in the nursery so it was good to work from home because I could easily pick him and stay at home with him.
In the meanwhile I even won 2 more clients. But after a while my main client started to pass me less and less work and we started to struggle financially. Because my son was only 3 days at the nursery I didn't have the proper time to market myself and gain new clients and so we decided that I should look for a full-time job.
Well, I started in a full-time job 2 months ago and I'm feeling soooooo unhappy! I miss so much being a freelance, not having a boss or being stuck in an office all week, organising my days myself. I need freedom in order to perform at my best and I just feel I'm drowning. Yes, we now have financial security but I don't feel happy.
My husband loves comfort and stability and makes me a lot of pressure to keep my job. I've told him that I want to get back into freelancing or starting an online business (that is my dream) but he doesn't support me much on that and we even had a lot of arguments about it. Basically he's scared to go trough financial problems again, which I totally understand, but I don't want to have a secure life and be totally unhappy!
I also would like to have more support from my partner which I don't. He doesn't care if I'm unhappy or if my personality doesn't suit a traditional 9-5 office job. He even told me that I have to prepare myself to not go back into being self-employed again!
I just think there's more to life than this. I've asked my employer if I could work from home at least 1 day per week and they've said no.
Well, I've had "employee" type parents that always make me pressure to just grab a 9-5 job and shut up, not giving a damn to how I am and what I want and now my husband does the same to me?
I need some advice please. I just don't discuss this with my DH anymore since it always ends with a big fight.
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