So I don't know what else to do, I'm in serious need of anyone's advice.. It's a long story but here goes..I met my boyfriend September two years ago, we fell in love almost instantly. For a year, he was a normal boy, he went clubbing with his friends and had fun, I was in school and didn't really do any of that, but I didn't feel like I had the authority to stop him. Anyway, one night I found out that a girl I knew was sitting on his lap and god knows what happened.. but anyway, I broke up with him. I didn't feel like I could trust him at all and my heart had basically been crushed.He begged for a long time to have me back, he would do anything asked. Then one day he said "I promise I will never speak to another girl or go clubbing ever again." So I said okay. The relationship for the following year became INTENSE, he never went to see his friends (not even a casual day out) once, he never spoke to a single girl and he didn't ask to either. I took control of the power he gave me in the way he would do anything I would ask him to, and he was so deeply in love that he would agree for example if I didn't let him for example go to a football match. Briefly, power got the best of me. I enjoyed having so much control over him because of the fact he broke my trust.. For that entire year it was JUST me and him, we saw eachother every single day. He would visit me Monday-Friday at lunchtimes, and then Saturday and Sunday mornings before work. It became toxic. Very toxic. I would go insane if any other girl was ever in the picture.Anyway, we are approaching the start of what would have been our third year together and he has given up. I never ever ever thought he would but he just had simply given up, he said he doesn't want to settle down any more and he sacrificed way too much for me, he says he was blinded by love and he is really sick of relationships and want to live his life again, and I BROKE. There is no way I can let him leave, I hav e been distraught for the past month and constantly begged for him back every day, and every night. Today, after I said I would do something stupid if he didn't come back, he said he would give it one chance, for me to show him I'm not crazy and can okay with him texting other girls and going clubbing again etc. But he feels like the roles will reverse and HE will take advantage of ME and the power I will give him. Im so desperate for this relationship to just get back how it used to be in the first year, no jealousy, not so intense, just love. It's become so toxic that I physically cannot go on without him, and I'm prepared to do anything to keep him. Should I give up because no matter how much I change he will never be good enough, or carry on and sacrifice everything like he did for me? I just don't know what to do anymore...By the way I'm 18 and going to uni this September, but our relationship has been very mature, to the point we thought of getting engaged later this y ear.
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