I've been with my gf for about a year, and it's been mostly great. It's very relaxed for the most part and we don't have a lot of drama.
About 2 months ago I met one of her friends for the first time on holiday and we clicked instantly. She's good looking but not insanely hot by any means, but I became more attracted to her the more we talked, and I began to realise I probably have more in common with her than my own gf.
Anyway, after spending a week in her company I went back home and the feelings receded for the most part. We saw her again last week for a few days, and the feelings pretty much came flooding back instantly. I made sure to act appropriately, but we just couldn't help but get on really well.
My gf got drunk one night and told me she was jealous of how well me and this girl get on, which made me feel a bit guilty as we both clearly realised that was the truth.
I'm home again now and just trying to decompress and work out my feelings. I've even considered introducing this girl to one of my single friends in an attempt to "cockblock" myself from ever making a move on her.
It's an awkward position to feel in because part of me wishes I could've met this girl a year ago, but at the same time I never would've met her if not for my gf, who for the most part is lovely, and I feel horrible even thinking like this. The difference is that me and my gf were friends with benefits for a while before hooking up, and there was never really this heart-pounding affection (at least on my end), the love grew slowly with familiarity. Whereas when I talk to her friend my heart races.
There's absolutely no way I'm going to dump my gf and make a move on her, because I am sure that would go horribly and my gf deserves better than that. I still love being with her, but having a taste of someone I clicked with so well just makes me feel a bit sick, really, and in the theoretical idea of being with her friend, I'm sure I probably would be happier.
I'm about 90% sure from comments made that I am this girl's type and in a different universe we probably would have been romantically compatible. I hate that I'm even typing this. Hopefully these feelings will fade in the next 2 months before I see her again.
Any advice?
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