Sorry for the essay.
I met her 2 months ago. it was intense we both really liked each other the night we met we were both absolutely ****ed on different things. she was only in my city/uni for a night we went to a friends with her friends we didn't do anything not even a kiss. saw her in her city a couple of times in the following week sober and still liked her she, feeling was mutual. the second time i met her i told her not to **** with my head by playing games and to never lie to me and to not ask me about my past and i won't ask about hers. she promised she wouldn't. i asked her if she had ever cheated on her ex (she was with him for 6 years and had broken up with him 5 days before meeting me but says that that relationship was over before it was over and that he is in a different country)and she said never but he cheated on her. I've never felt something for anyone like that before i normally just use girls but this one was different. a month later when she was visiting me in my uni she call ed me by her ex's name during sex. we had a huge argument and she came clean that she had in fact cheated on him multiple times and said that she understood if i didn't want to be with her anymore i didn't sleep that night and told her the next day that I'm willing to forget all of it if she committed to me. she was fine with it.
the next day she went back and her friend calls me and says that she's been telling her that she can't feel close to me and fall more for me if she doesn't know my past and i said that its going a little fast for me but I'm happy to open up. so she calls me the week after a day before i meant to see her and says she needs time and its going too fast for her so i gave her time and the next day i meet her and she's a bit cold at the start but through the day it gets a lot better.
then she sends me a message last week saying that she's happy that i gave her time and she's sure she's really for another story. ours.
last week i missed her birthday because of work and deadlines and i had told her that i would and she understood so i sent her flowers and stuff for the next day.
now again she calls me and says she needs time because she thinks she's not ready for another relationship because she feels she can't give as much as I'm giving. she wants to ends it but she feels she wants to stay with me because we are both afraid we won't find someone like each other again.
because of her i stopped drinking and taking drugs, i changed from being an ******* to a good person. i was happy. i feel like she changed me and made me soft and every time i think about that it makes me sick and i want to cut her out of my life but the thought of losing her also makes me sick
At this point i just need someone to take control and tell me what to do.. please.
I met her 2 months ago. it was intense we both really liked each other the night we met we were both absolutely ****ed on different things. she was only in my city/uni for a night we went to a friends with her friends we didn't do anything not even a kiss. saw her in her city a couple of times in the following week sober and still liked her she, feeling was mutual. the second time i met her i told her not to **** with my head by playing games and to never lie to me and to not ask me about my past and i won't ask about hers. she promised she wouldn't. i asked her if she had ever cheated on her ex (she was with him for 6 years and had broken up with him 5 days before meeting me but says that that relationship was over before it was over and that he is in a different country)and she said never but he cheated on her. I've never felt something for anyone like that before i normally just use girls but this one was different. a month later when she was visiting me in my uni she call ed me by her ex's name during sex. we had a huge argument and she came clean that she had in fact cheated on him multiple times and said that she understood if i didn't want to be with her anymore i didn't sleep that night and told her the next day that I'm willing to forget all of it if she committed to me. she was fine with it.
the next day she went back and her friend calls me and says that she's been telling her that she can't feel close to me and fall more for me if she doesn't know my past and i said that its going a little fast for me but I'm happy to open up. so she calls me the week after a day before i meant to see her and says she needs time and its going too fast for her so i gave her time and the next day i meet her and she's a bit cold at the start but through the day it gets a lot better.
then she sends me a message last week saying that she's happy that i gave her time and she's sure she's really for another story. ours.
last week i missed her birthday because of work and deadlines and i had told her that i would and she understood so i sent her flowers and stuff for the next day.
now again she calls me and says she needs time because she thinks she's not ready for another relationship because she feels she can't give as much as I'm giving. she wants to ends it but she feels she wants to stay with me because we are both afraid we won't find someone like each other again.
because of her i stopped drinking and taking drugs, i changed from being an ******* to a good person. i was happy. i feel like she changed me and made me soft and every time i think about that it makes me sick and i want to cut her out of my life but the thought of losing her also makes me sick
At this point i just need someone to take control and tell me what to do.. please.
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