Anonymously put because I know a couple people from uni know my username, and the whole point of this thread is that I need to tell people who don't know me because I can't tell my friends here!
So the story is, we've formed a relatively medium/big sized group of friends at university (roughly equal mixed sexes). Since about November, harmless flirtation and a consequent (arguably now harmful) crush has developed between my friend and I. I assumed I'd get over it at Christmas, and I think I actually did. But a couple weeks back spending every day with him and my friends again, and the crush is back...hitting me harder than before.
I find myself thinking constantly about him, having to look the other way when we flirt about because I feel the urge to smile like the cheshire cat, and today I even got carried away daydreaming. Even though you don't know who I am, even telling strangers anonymously on the internet what I was daydreaming about is embarrassing to admit.
It's not just a crush anymore, it's that I really like him. At the club the other night, I thought I caught him talking to another girl out of the corner of my eye and my head turned so quickly to look it almost snapped off. I wouldn't have been upset, as such, if he was with a girl...because there's technically nothing between us, I'd just probably glare at her back a bit in the typical jealous schoolgirl fashion, and maybe feel a pang in my stomach.
The other night, he was very handsy at the club (hugs from behind, hand on waist, kissing my neck - or trying). The thing is I could tell he was building up to kiss me, but he was also ridiculously smashed out of his head that I wasn't having any of it. We brushed it off in the morning as "someone got too drunk last night" and my group of friends all made a big joke of it and thought it was funny.
Little do any of them know about how I like him, and I don't know if they've picked up on the flirting before. I've never been asked about it, or admitted it to anyone, because I don't want gossip to spread and people to talk.
Two of the guys have joked about how someday there will be a couple within the group, so I know it could happen, it's just all really strange because we're all friends and I don't even know if he feels anything back or is just enjoying the flirting and that's that (although I know he has mentioned that he thinks I'm "hot" a few times which I had to refrain from grinning at when I was told).
It's an odd feeling starting to fancy one of your close friends. Again, not really looking for advice. I'm not looking to do anything about it, as such, just carry on as normal and see what happens (if anything does). I just needed to finally tell SOMEONE.
Anyone else ever started seeing a good friend in a different light...?
So the story is, we've formed a relatively medium/big sized group of friends at university (roughly equal mixed sexes). Since about November, harmless flirtation and a consequent (arguably now harmful) crush has developed between my friend and I. I assumed I'd get over it at Christmas, and I think I actually did. But a couple weeks back spending every day with him and my friends again, and the crush is back...hitting me harder than before.
I find myself thinking constantly about him, having to look the other way when we flirt about because I feel the urge to smile like the cheshire cat, and today I even got carried away daydreaming. Even though you don't know who I am, even telling strangers anonymously on the internet what I was daydreaming about is embarrassing to admit.
It's not just a crush anymore, it's that I really like him. At the club the other night, I thought I caught him talking to another girl out of the corner of my eye and my head turned so quickly to look it almost snapped off. I wouldn't have been upset, as such, if he was with a girl...because there's technically nothing between us, I'd just probably glare at her back a bit in the typical jealous schoolgirl fashion, and maybe feel a pang in my stomach.
The other night, he was very handsy at the club (hugs from behind, hand on waist, kissing my neck - or trying). The thing is I could tell he was building up to kiss me, but he was also ridiculously smashed out of his head that I wasn't having any of it. We brushed it off in the morning as "someone got too drunk last night" and my group of friends all made a big joke of it and thought it was funny.
Little do any of them know about how I like him, and I don't know if they've picked up on the flirting before. I've never been asked about it, or admitted it to anyone, because I don't want gossip to spread and people to talk.
Two of the guys have joked about how someday there will be a couple within the group, so I know it could happen, it's just all really strange because we're all friends and I don't even know if he feels anything back or is just enjoying the flirting and that's that (although I know he has mentioned that he thinks I'm "hot" a few times which I had to refrain from grinning at when I was told).
It's an odd feeling starting to fancy one of your close friends. Again, not really looking for advice. I'm not looking to do anything about it, as such, just carry on as normal and see what happens (if anything does). I just needed to finally tell SOMEONE.
Anyone else ever started seeing a good friend in a different light...?
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