I began voluntary work in March, 9-5 twice a week. At first it was going great, I was developing my skills and making new friends. I got close to 3 other people and we usually worked in a group together. However in late September a new guy came, apparently he'd worked there for a while but he had been abroad for a few months, so everyone knew him really well and was looking forward to him coming back.
Since then me and him have got really close and I've developed feelings for him I'd say to the point I can't get him out of my head and it's affecting my work. We have the same hobbies and interests (We are a member of the same group sort of connected to the voluntary work but not directly) and I just love being around him. I haven't told anyone else about it because it would be kind of forbidden (i am 20 he is 29).
Recently I have told the manager that I am no longer going to be able to work due to other commitments.. because I just can't take it anymore. I know it sounds extreme but that's how strong my feelings are. I think he likes me as a friend and things would go further if I were a little older. But I just can't take it. I've tried working in different areas to him, and trying hard not to think about him, but it's too difficult.
Am I doing the right thing? I guess I just need reassurance that nothing was going to happen between us anyway and that it's best I let go of the voluntary work.
Since then me and him have got really close and I've developed feelings for him I'd say to the point I can't get him out of my head and it's affecting my work. We have the same hobbies and interests (We are a member of the same group sort of connected to the voluntary work but not directly) and I just love being around him. I haven't told anyone else about it because it would be kind of forbidden (i am 20 he is 29).
Recently I have told the manager that I am no longer going to be able to work due to other commitments.. because I just can't take it anymore. I know it sounds extreme but that's how strong my feelings are. I think he likes me as a friend and things would go further if I were a little older. But I just can't take it. I've tried working in different areas to him, and trying hard not to think about him, but it's too difficult.
Am I doing the right thing? I guess I just need reassurance that nothing was going to happen between us anyway and that it's best I let go of the voluntary work.
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