So basically, I used to get on pretty well with my housemates, we would watch films together and occasionally go out drinking together and stuff.
They all knew each other before they knew me, so I always felt they were a bit "cliquey" and sometimes I felt a bit left out and got upset. The last straw came about two months ago when it was one of my housemate's birthdays; they had a big cake and never offered me any of it, even though I could see that the others had had a slice.
I didn't say anything about it, but a few days later they said they were really sorry for not offering me any, and that they'd just forgot. There was still some cake left and they said I could help myself to it, but I told them I couldn't accept their apology because the fact that they forgot said a lot about their attitude towards me, and stopped talking to all of my housemates, completely blanking them. The following weekend, they all went away for the weekend without telling me they were going, which I thought was really rude.
We haven't spoke socially at all since then, not even 'hi'. Since then there have been arguments between me and them over things like bills not being paid on time and whether or not the heating should be on.
Now, I just feel like all the conflict and hatred is eating away at me and making me miserable :(
Sometimes I think I hate them, other times I think they're alright, like the other day when they came to let me know that my food was starting to burn in the oven, even though I wasn't speaking to them.
I'm not sure we can ever go back to the way things were before, we do disagree on some things, but it would be nice to be on speaking terms again.
I just can't do anything that makes me look weak and gives them the power, I can't let them know that I'm unhappy. So I'm not sure how I can improve the situation while still protecting my pride :S
They all knew each other before they knew me, so I always felt they were a bit "cliquey" and sometimes I felt a bit left out and got upset. The last straw came about two months ago when it was one of my housemate's birthdays; they had a big cake and never offered me any of it, even though I could see that the others had had a slice.
I didn't say anything about it, but a few days later they said they were really sorry for not offering me any, and that they'd just forgot. There was still some cake left and they said I could help myself to it, but I told them I couldn't accept their apology because the fact that they forgot said a lot about their attitude towards me, and stopped talking to all of my housemates, completely blanking them. The following weekend, they all went away for the weekend without telling me they were going, which I thought was really rude.
We haven't spoke socially at all since then, not even 'hi'. Since then there have been arguments between me and them over things like bills not being paid on time and whether or not the heating should be on.
Now, I just feel like all the conflict and hatred is eating away at me and making me miserable :(
Sometimes I think I hate them, other times I think they're alright, like the other day when they came to let me know that my food was starting to burn in the oven, even though I wasn't speaking to them.
I'm not sure we can ever go back to the way things were before, we do disagree on some things, but it would be nice to be on speaking terms again.
I just can't do anything that makes me look weak and gives them the power, I can't let them know that I'm unhappy. So I'm not sure how I can improve the situation while still protecting my pride :S
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