| So I just had my baby 3 weeks ago. I have been dying to make love to my partner... Both of us are so sleep deprived that we fall asleep as soon as our heads hit the pillow. So the other morning when we woke up for work, we talked about making time that eve to be intimate... I know, not very romantic but both of us seemed excited despite the plan.. lol... Then later that evening my partner got angry with me over a simple miscommunication about dropping off the kids... he wasn't very nice to me about it and unfortunately after that I was put off and NOT in the mood to make love to him... I was pretty hurt by some of his comments to me and on top of that very disappointed that he would be upset with me over something so minor that it ruined our plans to be intimate... So the next day, I got on his kindle to access his address book. I have been planning a surprise dinner party for his birthday this week and needed to get a few of his friends phone numbers with out him knowing about it. when I turned it on there was a page with a beautiful naked girl pulled up... yep he was looking at porn after our fight... We have struggled in our relationship about his porn addiction but this really hurt me. He knew I wanted to be intimate pretty badly and I feel angry that he would be mean to me then go look at porn and satisfy himself... I desperately want his sexual energy to be used with me and not the porn but that's not happening. When I tried to talk to him later that night about about how I was feeling he accused me of snooping in his kindle, lying about looking for his friends contact information for the bday party and then told me that I have jealousy issues and that he wasn't going to argue with me over it. we haven't even talked since that... I do feel jealous, even of porn... Porn is getting what I am supposed to be getting.... Now I feel like he chose porn over me. He could have came and apologized or tried to make things right with me after that argument so that we would be good with each other for the night and continue with our intimacy plan... but no... I am not sure how to cope with his porn anymore... its pushing me farther away from him... if it was once in a while I could cope but its so often that its disturbing to me.. Anyone go through this, thoughts ideas for me? | |||
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