When can your gut be trusted again?

I've been in an odd funk this last week or so (see my post about being steamrolled by a trigger). My WH continues to do everything he can to reassure me. I didn't tell him the complete details about my trigger but he noticed I was brooding and asked me what was wrong and what could he do to fix it. I told him I had been feeling insecure and admitted I didn't know why since he tells me everything I want to know and has done a good job of helping me keep up with him. He thanked me for not just saying "nothing", and said "I care about how you FEEL and I don't want my wife to feel like she's constantly fighting when there is NO BATTLE". So why DO I feel like I'm fighting? So often here I see posts about trusting your gut but my gut finds it hilarious to constantly send me chasing wild geese! Just a couple days ago while WH was working on a race boat for a customer just over an hour away, he called and said it was taking the gelcoat a bit longer to dry due to the hazy weather and he would be a little later than expected. I knew exactly where he was. He had even sent me a pic of some baby ducks he thought I would think were cute swimming around his work area. BUT...it was spring break and his XOW kids were out of school. I loaded up my grandson and drove immediately (30 minute drive) to where she works to make sure she was there because I didn't know if she would take the week off to stay with her child. She was, of course, at work. On another day I saw him on his phone and when he hung up, it looked as if he was deleting the call from the history because of the way he continued to navigate the screen. I looked at the clock and said nothing. That night I checked and the call had not been deleted, but at exactly the same time our daughter had texted him to see if we were home because she wanted us to sign something for her. He was just checking a text! I'm driving myself nuts, constantly chasing shadows despite his efforts to be transparent and comforting. :2gunsfiring_v1::crazy:

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