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valentines day, what to do

Hi, some of you may have read my previous post "messed up and paying the price" so here is an update.

valentines day coming up, do I buy card , flowers etc?
been in seperate bedrooms for 5 months, no intimacy at all for 9 months. My wife says she loves me but not in love with me, is not attracted to me and feels like she want to be on her own.
the atmosphere is very tense and when I try to have a general conversation I get one word answers, thats if she drag herself away from her laptop.
over the past few months , after some serious tears in private,
I have been tuning things out and just trying to get on with my own life but I can see that this does p&&* her off big time.
I do have thoughts now about having a little place of my own, maybe a holiday etc
I don't realy believe that i can change the way my wife feels about me and I am sure as hell not goint to grovel.

everyone deserves to be happy, including my wife, but just co-existing is not going to work.
So, I guess valentines gifts would just be bull s*&^ on my part.
what if she gets me something, what do I read into that.

bit of a mixed up post I know but to be honest thats how i feel,
mixed up, un-loved, unattractive and unwanted, not to mention a bit angry.
cheers




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