Shocked - would like someone to talk to!

My History: I've been married 15 years, 2 kids, 5 years ago caught H having a cyber relationship with someone (Found a photo of her on his phone), but I believe they never met, I spoke with her and she said it was 'nothign serious, a bit of fun, no harm ment!' (easy for her to say!) but 2 years ago, I found him registered on a sex site, which I forgave, I have a very low SD and partly blaimed this, but it was only ever over the internet/mobile phone, no actual physical contact. Now: A couple of days ago I found a message on facebook from another woman, calling my husband names and threatening to phone him at 4pm in the afternoon! I confronted my H with this, I was very calm, didn't shout or cry, but I knew he was upto something a married man shouldn't be. He got really upset, burst into tears, told me it was over, he had finished it a few weeks ago, New Year resouloution! he loved me and realised it was wrong and he didn't want to hurt me (Bit Bl**dy late!) but he had met her and had sex on one ocassion, but did other things another couple of times with her, it was purley sex, no relationship, no love, but had been going on for about 8 months! My life fell apart! I don't even know where to start, he says he'll do anything I want him to, but I don't even know what that is yet, I do love him and he is a good father, but I don't know if I could ever touch him sexually again, I have had sex with him since he was with her (he promised he wore a condom!) but I have first and formost got him to go to the STD clinic, awaiting results!. I feel disgusted, stomach churning revolt to him touching me. I believe he has been honest he has answered every question I have asked however much the answer hurt me! He says he wants to make it work, I feel stupid for 'forgiving' the cybersex if this is where it has led, will these feelings get better? would be great if there was someone out there who has experienced similar to talk to............

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