Lately things have been horrible. Our divorce should be wrapped up before the end of the year. Looks right now like we might avoid trial. Maybe.
For the 6 months we've been separated he's seen our 5-year-old maybe once a week. All of a sudden this past week he wants to see him more. We will be having 50/50 joint custody on paper through the divorce, which I agreed to only to move things along. He just wants child support money, which I know. He'll never take him as much as he can, which I'm grateful for. Why the switch in seeing our son more this last week though? Finally realizing what a crappy father he is? I'm skeptical.
He's also developed a new tactic. The other night he sent me 35 texts in a row and called my phone 18 times in a 5-minute window. His texts are very angry. He has never been able to take any ownership for his faults in our marriage, even when I openly came to him addressing my faults at the beginning of our separation. As such, he is developing his own "conspiracy theories" for why I left instead of dealing with and accepting the truth. In his texts he accuses me of cheating on him. He has himself convinced all of a sudden that that's why I left. I shouldn't care what he thinks...but I do. It's akin to being convicted of a crime you know you did not commit, but you're being told that you did. I have no defense against his psychotic rants. I just ended a screaming match on the phone with him. I lost control. I screamed, I cursed, I cried. And finally I ended up hanging up on him because he jus wouldn't quit. I can't do this anymore. I'm mentally and emotionally drained. I just want him out of my life.
For the 6 months we've been separated he's seen our 5-year-old maybe once a week. All of a sudden this past week he wants to see him more. We will be having 50/50 joint custody on paper through the divorce, which I agreed to only to move things along. He just wants child support money, which I know. He'll never take him as much as he can, which I'm grateful for. Why the switch in seeing our son more this last week though? Finally realizing what a crappy father he is? I'm skeptical.
He's also developed a new tactic. The other night he sent me 35 texts in a row and called my phone 18 times in a 5-minute window. His texts are very angry. He has never been able to take any ownership for his faults in our marriage, even when I openly came to him addressing my faults at the beginning of our separation. As such, he is developing his own "conspiracy theories" for why I left instead of dealing with and accepting the truth. In his texts he accuses me of cheating on him. He has himself convinced all of a sudden that that's why I left. I shouldn't care what he thinks...but I do. It's akin to being convicted of a crime you know you did not commit, but you're being told that you did. I have no defense against his psychotic rants. I just ended a screaming match on the phone with him. I lost control. I screamed, I cursed, I cried. And finally I ended up hanging up on him because he jus wouldn't quit. I can't do this anymore. I'm mentally and emotionally drained. I just want him out of my life.
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