Ok...so I've got GCSEs in 2 weeks and I'm really starting to worry that I'm going to mess them up because of this..
Been at secondary school for 3 years and had a great 3 years. I've had some girlfriends and have got some great mates. However theres always been this one guy...well at first I was kinda shy around him and likewise him to me. I always found it quite awkward whenever I had to make conversation with him or anything like that.
Anyway he lives near me and I've been in his football team. We've kind of got closer but still it can be a tiny bit awkward. Of course this awkwardness goes and I can socialise with him and play sports. He's actually a really nice guy.
Now he's what I find weird. I can't stop thinking about him. I have no idea why. He's got quite a high pitch voice and could maybe class him as "gay" - he has never said anything and there are others guys at my school who you could classify more confidently as gay.
So now I'm questioning myself...does that make me gay? I've never had any of these thoughts about anyone else...with this guy they're not even sexual or anything....it's just like I'm kinda of obsessed with him. I'll be at home and just thinking...well what will he be doing now and so on. It's the same at school and I will be always like looking out for him. If I do see then I won't approach him or anything though. We aren't in any classes though.
As you can probably can tell I'm so confused by this. I have told myself that it's just the age I'm at and how I'm changing. To me the whole "gay thing" is pretty disgusting (not that I have a problem with anyone who is gay). I just don't understand why it's just him. All I've ever thought about is girls really so what's he doing in my head?
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