Made absolutely no friends in 1st year. All my housemates were into drinking/clubbing and at that time I didn't do those things at all so never really got along with them. Year dragged by, I felt lonely and screwed up my results. Came back for second year feeling more optimistic and promised myself to be more outgoing and make an effort to change my situation.
Managed to move in a house with current 3rd years and get along great with them for the most part but at times I feel alienated since they do sometimes go out without me or extend an invitation at the last minute. I kind of expected that since those three are bff and that didn't really bother me at the beginning. But since then we have all gotten really close. Recently, I made a plan for us to go out for a special breakfast (more of a cultural thing), we had to wait for a housemate to get back from her boyfriend's place since we knew she had craving it for so long and would be mad at us for going without her. I had been up the whole night before and been ill so suddenly felt extremely tired/not in the mood to go. Yet they were all eager to go without me even though they knew I really wanted to and how excited I was for it. This isn't the first instance: like if I am ever in the mood for say Nandos and the other person wants Indian or something, they would all just go against mine but the next day end up going to Nandos even though the previous day they would be like no have eaten it too much, Nandos is boring etc etc. There have been days where I don't feel motivated to do anything and again I have lost all interest in my studies. I have been seeking counseling as well.
So how do I deal with this? I have tried ignoring it but it doesn't help. On top of all that, I have no other friends to hang out with even though I have made efforts with people on my course, inviting those out with shared interests but get nothing back. I don't have housing for next year except for halls which are expensive. A mistake I made was I didn't join societies at the start of the year and now I just feel reluctant going to any because people are always into their own groups by this time of the year and I would just feel like I am tagging. Doesn't help that I have a quiet personality and it takes time for me to open up to people. I miss my friends from back home, people with whom I can have silly laughs with, with whom you can be weird but they won't give a **** etc.
Sorry for such a long post but really need help dealing with all this.
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