I am married 20 years. I miss me. I changed for everyone and lost my identity. I miss having friends and going out although my husband has loads of them and nights out. I left my hometown, job and family to set up home with him and rear two kids, one was sick for seven years. I want something else, I want to feel alive again. I am very young at heart and do not look my nearly fifty years. I am stuck in a dead end. Sex with my husband does not appeal to me but yet I am a hopeless romantic and sexual person. He was never romantic. He works hard, provides for us well but will not listen to how I really feel. I am lost, I am not me anymore. Where to now. I have no one, no money of my own, nothing. I know I have my faults too and will openly admit to them but not him, he is perfect, the funny man all the time. Life and soul of the party. But sometimes I just want to be held by a man not a joker. I want to feel safe, appreciated and romanced. Is this al l there is to life.
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