We have been married 5 1/2 years, it is the 2nd time for us both. The last almost 2 years, have really stunk.
I have learned that I can not talk to my H at all, and if I try all I ever here is that I'm to sensitive blah blah. If we argue he calls me bad names, but I never do that to him.
He also has said more than once it is over, and right before our 5th anniversary he said he wanted a divorce.I think he does this when I hit the nail on the head and he does not like to hear the truth about himself in my eyes. I'm tired of living in fear that one day I will come home and he will have moved out, or he makes me leave.
He shows me no sympathy in anything, I feel like I'm supposed to be a robot, I also hate the fact that he talks bad about me to people some of who has never met me.
He has met this guy on the internet, and all he does all day is text, chat of FB and on a forum. He never really talks to me any more, unless he ask whats for dinner.
I wish he was my friend still, right now I feel like we are roommates with the occasional benefits. I can not talk to him about anything at all, and it hurts that I can't have feelings and talk to him about them.
I'm no longer his priority, like he is mine. I rarely do anything for myself, and I have lost all my friends and the ones I have all they want to do is bar hop and I have out grown that.
I do not know how to get over feeling so d*mn lonely and lost. I know couples settle and all that, but what I'm going through is more than that.
There is more to my story, but will start with this as I do not want to write a book.
I have learned that I can not talk to my H at all, and if I try all I ever here is that I'm to sensitive blah blah. If we argue he calls me bad names, but I never do that to him.
He also has said more than once it is over, and right before our 5th anniversary he said he wanted a divorce.I think he does this when I hit the nail on the head and he does not like to hear the truth about himself in my eyes. I'm tired of living in fear that one day I will come home and he will have moved out, or he makes me leave.
He shows me no sympathy in anything, I feel like I'm supposed to be a robot, I also hate the fact that he talks bad about me to people some of who has never met me.
He has met this guy on the internet, and all he does all day is text, chat of FB and on a forum. He never really talks to me any more, unless he ask whats for dinner.
I wish he was my friend still, right now I feel like we are roommates with the occasional benefits. I can not talk to him about anything at all, and it hurts that I can't have feelings and talk to him about them.
I'm no longer his priority, like he is mine. I rarely do anything for myself, and I have lost all my friends and the ones I have all they want to do is bar hop and I have out grown that.
I do not know how to get over feeling so d*mn lonely and lost. I know couples settle and all that, but what I'm going through is more than that.
There is more to my story, but will start with this as I do not want to write a book.
Put the internet to work for you.
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